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Jerry F


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the court, the judge, the lawyer, the police, the feelings and expectations and wants and desires.  That is my life yesterday which I have let go for today cause yesterday is done and I can only work on little parts of that today as they come up and as I have time.

I think to myself..."I was just going to get a rain hat to keep my head and hair dry while I worked at my business...and then I'm in another play, on another stage working at extracting myself from a mess of insanity?"

My body still hurts and well it should.  A body this old, no matter the condition is supposed to sustain injury from being assaulted.  My questioning "How in the hell will this all end for me and for the people I have been aligned with since birth"?  I want "us" to come out better for this.  No race or nation of people should be treated like this; violently, for any reason for this long.  I put that aside from time to time because my Nationality isn't being charged directly...I am and it is envolved.  I am grateful as all get out for the Al-Anon program cause it helps me sooo unbeliveably. 

I am disabled...deaf...don't hear well double-bionic or not.  The court has hearing devices and I choose to go with those yet when I take my aids out to use the hearing device the aids start to come apart.  I say honestly..."Being deaf is lousey"!! and the court and judge smiles.  My lawyer manipulates for a later hearing date while a couple other guys who have used him tell me he isn't sooo effective.  He's pro-bono...I'm thinking my other choice is do it myself. 

There are similarities to being married to and living with an alcoholic/addict and in the disease of addiction.  I got prepared for insanity especially with ongoing insanity as my hearing aids come apart again as I try to re-install them in my ears.  "It is what it is" I want to tell the court and then that's not necessary...they are just as powerless and I can't save them from anything.

What has been most important is the first step and the behavior of turning this all over to my Higher Power with acceptance of how it comes out and my part being as close to my HP's will...Love versus Fear of and for it all. 

I have hope...some because it becomes very very clear that the arrest was false and that the interpretation of the laws by the police not close to reality and still I have it verified that "they" don't have to live with or in reality in order to interfere with my life.  Does that or doesn't that sound like the disease of addiction?

I'm grateful for the special blessings I have gotten from the MIP family membership.  It is sooooo comforting and a cause from happiness that beyond the shores of my home love and compassion exist and are sent this way.  I love you all too...unconditionally...alot.  It is a wonder as I sit in the courtroom with you all in my mind and heart that if you were there in body they would have to rebuild the building.   LOL!!

Mahalo Nui e ho`omaika`i...Thanks so much and blessings.  ((((hugs)))) smile



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(((Hugs Jerry))

 

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  In my thoughts and prayers.  One Day at a Time, we are all walking with you.

Remember HP is right by your side and this Too Shall Pass.



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-- Edited by hotrod on Friday 27th of January 2012 10:22:55 AM

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Thank you for sharing. We're in that courtroom with you in spirit...

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I am thinking of you, and I so appreciate how you apply the gifts of the program to your life. Thank you for you continual support and inspiration. Easy does it today! Sending you support. hugs

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((((Jerry))))

HOPE... is a Great thing to Have, And My Prayers are with you as You walk Yet another Amazing Journey with HP, Your Program & All of Us Right there with you =) I know for me it at times Feels like an Angel Wing Cring me thru My Day, just knowing that so Many are Praying for me, & Care enough to Think of me in my Times of Distraut, distrust & flat out discust... You have Shared so Much Love & Inspiration Here, & I am Grateful to have you as One of My Stepping Stones to the Life You all Proved to me I Deserve...

Hold your Head High My brother, You walk with a Jury bigger then any Court Room could Have... HP Is Our Jury, and that will take you the rest of the way... :)

Sending Hugs, Love, Prayers, Compassion, Blessings, Strength, & Faith Your Way My Friend...

Thank You for Your Continued Service to the 12 Steps & Your Program... You Help Keep My Own Feet, Firmly Planted on the Ground :0)

Love & Prayers

Jozie

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With you every step of the way Jerry! Sending you love and support!

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Oh Jerry I wish I could be there with ya. I could help ya keep your "ears" together...

I would say,"well send me a ticket and meet me at the airport" BUT that would be a mistake............hehe

The world is a mess Jer and you did not make it that way. All you can do is tell your truth and go from there. What can happen?

I am surprised this has gone on this long.

Anyway you know I care my brother. You are such an enigma, bright, intelligent, funny, forgiving, humble, caring, but somehow you seem to have trouble facing you. I KNOW you will hold to your integrity.

that is just you. love,debilyn



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Jerry,

Our MIP brother,  David has a great story about an item he took with him to court that reminded him his Alanon family was with him there.

So, here's a suggestion.  Go down to the beach and find a smooth stone that has been loved by the ocean.  Imagine that stone was sent from us on the mainland just for you.  Put it in your pocket and keep us with you.  biggrin

 

Christy



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Jerry,

My brother from another mother, .. I am thinking of you and sending prayers of love and support. I love Christy's idea too that is a very very awesome thought!!

Hugs P :)

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Thinking of you Jerry. You have been there for me many many times. keep us posted

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