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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Lol well I guess the positive of this situation at the moment means I have to say everything I want in very short sentences. So get to the point right?? In my sunday group we are studying step 1. It's coming up to the last week of study and I'm really seeing it in a whole new light. I think that is happening because I'm in a whole other space than I was a year ago. I'm really just in a place of emotional rawness it's not a bad thing it just is. I don't know if that makes sense it's just where I am. In all of the readings lately I keep coming back to "changing the things I can". There a lot of things I could change, I can leave the situation I'm in, for me that is not the answer. If that is not the answer for me what can I change? It comes back to working on myself and my own character defects. I can testify that awareness in me has brought with it new changes both positive and challenging. I'm outside of my comfort zone. All of a sudden I'm responsible for my own happiness, my own emotional responses. I'm also responsible for my current situation good or bad. Where I have experienced the greatest growth is not having to be responsible for someone elses happiness or unhappiness. It is not to say I don't care about the people in my life. I no longer have to be responsible for their successes or failures. What a relief that is for me. It had freed me emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually to create a happier me. There is no way I'm saying I've got this down and have all the answers. That is one small part in a much larger picture. It's just a huge thing to admit I'm powerless over people, places, things and the past. I can move forward on this journey without having to stare backwards or fix things that are not mine to own. I don't know where I would be without the alanon program. It is humbling to be a part of this journey. Thanks and hugs p;) I hope there are not a bunch of auto corrects our this could be kind of embarrassing lol!!
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I love this post, pushka. I can feel your emotions and I can relate. I am also basking in the happiness that I am responsible for me and others are responsible for themselves.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
