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Yesterday I said goodbye to my DAD. I was able to listen to the graveside service by phone. It was good as well as strange & weird--never experienced anything like that before & hope I will never have to again. I guess words really can't describe how the whole thing came about. I am just so grateful for my sis & bro-in-law for being there. Even my nieces were able to participate in the experience as they read two of the poems my dad wrote.
Anyhow, I am glad it is over. But, I feel that the healing & grieving might take awhile. I just have to live one day at a time. I really need to keep in touch w/ those who I consider close to me. I am never going to isolate.
I went to an open AA meeting last night & shared my experiences & how I am able to cope w/ this last year. I am now ready for the New year to come. It hopefully will be better.
My sponsee(I think she still is) lost her father last night. I just am so glad to know that I can be there for her at this difficult time & sympathize w/ her now that I have gone through some of what she is feeling now.
Today is a good day to reflect, too, on the good things that have happened over the last year. I may have not been able to see my dad before he died. For all of you who aren't following me, I went to see my dad last May but was unable to stick it out long enough to see him.
OK good things: we got our loan on our home paid at the end of this year--been paying it since the summer of 2006 even when things were rough. My husband is still in recovery. I am in recovery. I know this because I am a survivor. I am not just existing; I am living.
I guess if I think about it, I am being carried through the hard times still. My emotions are high & confusing sometimes but at least I am still kicking.
Oh yeah, & tonight I think my h & mom & I are going to a sober party for New Year's. We have gone many times before--I think it will be a good one. I am just going to take it as it comes.
Have a wonderful year and I'm glad you were able to attend the funeral even if via technology. I have found it's just so important to participate in some way.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I'm sorry for the loss of your father. My dad passed away 3 weeks ago and, despite our difficulties, I know I will miss him(and I do). I lost him a long time ago, though, due to his drinking and lifestyle choices but he will always be my dad. And, there is always healing and rejoicing that follows death, as well as grieving and sorrow. Praying for peace for you this new year.
Keeping your head high in such trying times. You are an inspiration. You are working your program and its wonderful you can be there for your sponsee. he/she is lucky to have you. Happy NYE, enjoy your party, be safe.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
