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So in 2011 I had two miscarriages, had a close friend die, my husband relapse and find out I was lied to, then my husband relapse again overdose and almost die in front of me, then my husband went to rehab for three weeks.
It was the best year of my life.
Why? Because I have discovered that these trials that I went through in life, these crazy roller coaster rides of pain and sorrow are building blocks, they are stepping stones. What they did for me is far greater than what they dampered. I am happier, I am more appreciative, I am more compassionate, I see others as humans with souls, I let them be them
"The more I'm me the more you're you." I live by this quote now. I love myself. I try everyday to be me. more and more like me. I am learning who I really am at 27 and its fun. I have unconditional love for others including my AH.
But the number one reason 2011 was great is this.. there is now a spiritual side to my life. Every morning I wake and I re-do steps 1-3. I pray, I meditate and I give it up to God. Because now I know that I am not. I am not God and God can handle it. I believe God is everywhere and all around, the wind, the air I breathe. As I breathe in I will say, let go. and breathe out and say let god. you know and I actually feel it? Its not superficial, its real. when the hairs stand up on the back on my neck and I know its the natural mystic, its God. I am so grateful for what I have found. I think 'why did I not search harder before' but it took me falling hard to find it... "When you fall... dive." I am just so grateful for this life and the fact I see it as a screen now rather than hollow... the screen lets in glimpses and you cant see it all. but there is more and there is something else out there (my beliefs) I hope I am not offending anyone. If so Ill remove the post. I appreciate and respect anyone and everyones beliefs. Its beautiful. whatever your HP is to you is what it is.. thats it because it works for you.. and I finally found something that really works for me.
My end of year realization is that I have really put this into practice:
Self pity, fear, and worry never did get anyone anything or anywhere. Hope, spiritual awareness, self knowledge, and the courage for self growth... that takes you places. Happy last day of 2011, best year ever.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
Thank you for sharing. I've had a rough 2011, but also a 2011 filled with blessings, as well. Happy New Year to you and rejoicing with you in the growth you have gained in this past year. May 2012 be filled with more spiritual awareness and greater feelings of self-worth, self-appreciation, and trust in that Higher Power.
It has been a rough year for a lot of people, my friends & obviously you included. All I can really say is that I am grateful that God pulled all of us through this & we have a chance to make changes or whatever it is that is necessary to get through another year--One day at a time.
I am so glad you posted. You sound like you are stronger & ready to go through the next things that come your way.
I hope you find serenity like I am trying to find.
2010 was that year for me I was ready to be done not ready to see it as the blessing it really was a LOT happened that year. Then this year, has been with it's frustrations and losses I' so grateful I'm in a different place. Thank you very much for your share it sure puts things into perspective over it's our attitudes that decide how we process the things in our lives.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Thank you for your post. I am having a very hard day - one filled with despair - but your post reminded me of many of the things that this last year has brought me - and that the very hardest things in life bring learning, and compassion - things to be thankful for.
Happy New Year, MIP friends. Thank you for posting. Have a safe and sober evening.. and if those around are not sober I still wish you serenity despite. :)
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
What an incredible post. The year I left the ex A was a seminal one for me. I made great strides towards becoming independent. Even though 2011 was a hard year it was a better year than 2010. Every year gets better.
