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level.
I am away from home on holidays at the moment. There was a catgory 2 cyclone near my town on Xmas day but it hit aobut 150km east of us in a fairly isolated area of the Northern Territory so it was all good. The cyclone moved east... guess which direction I went on holidays.. hehehe.. EAST!!!!
Its all good, I am not worried, I moved far enough for it not to be a major issue.
Yesterday, my husband and I (sound like the Queen hehehe) were walking down the street and there was the same herbal shop we have at home where he buys his 'legal' dope. He went in. I walked past it origianally hoping he wouldn't see it, he did. The stuff he likes is now illegal in our state, but there it was for sale here in this shop. It was a big container of it. He was looking and showed me it. I said, doesn't matter if its legal here, its not legal at home anymore. He didn't buy any, I left the shop. He has mentioned it a few times since then and I know he is thinking about it.
I just have to hand it over and see what happens. He has hardly smoked at all the last few weeks, I think, I don't ask anymore so I am not totally sure, but either way, his behaviour has been good and we have been getting along.
I have tried very hard to not work on my perceptions and my reactions. So far it is working for me.
Today we are going to catch up with three of my friends that I have not seen for between 5 and 18 years!!!!!! Wow.. that is a looooooong time.
I am nervous, unsure, would rather just go back under the blankets and talk to her on facebook!!!! I should be excited, but I am so not social anyore.... I think its also the BPD... who am I to this person, who shall I be for this person, how do I act and behave.... be me??? good.. who am I????
I am sure it will all be fine..... I am not online much, so send me good vibes hey
So glad you are safe!! Keep on keeping on!!.hugs p;)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I've observed that many Alanoners, myself included, have stepped away from socializing. I am being encouraged to step out of my comfort zone daily to practice interacting... some days go better than others.
Living so many years with an active A had eroded my sense of self. I was asked what happened to it and I realize that many pieces of me are just gone. Rebuilding what will work for me...
