Where do I begin? Well...reality is really hitting me right now. Hospice has been called in & my DAD doesn't have much time for sure as I found out yesterday after my last post. My sister is now his caregiver for sure. I am so relieved but very sad as you can imagine. I will use the tools as I have been lately. Yesterday's CTC told me exactly what I needed. I am taking care of myself as best as I can. You all have taught how important it is to take care of me first. I am so grateful that I have all of you!

More will be revealed to all of us what our HP wants us to do One day at a time. I find myself living that way lately. Gratitude, gratitude & more gratitude! All I can do is be grateful & focus on the good & the memories of my DAD. I can't let it get me to the point where I am lost. I am not going to lose another battle w/ my mind! All I can do really now is Pray & keep in touch w/ my family! They really do need me whether they think so or not!

I have loads of friends in & out of the program who know me & basically what my needs are. I have phone numbers & because of the small town I live in coffee shops & other places are readily available even if I have to walk. I don't drive so I am basically a pedestrian. Yeah, we still exist! I have a lot of experience w/ the long walks even in the winter time.

Newcomers keep coming back! The miracles are in store & waiting & I am a miracle & I have hope. Hang onto those promises. I am living proof that if you stick around, you will find hope! Just in case I don't get on here until after the holiday, I wish you all a lovely, healthy & sober time w/ peace & joy!

Love you all!

Kathleen