Hi all. It's been too long. I've been without my computer for quite some time. I have been going to about one face to face meeting a week, definately not enough. Things were going pretty well for a while when I was concentrating whole heartedly on myself...then I got back into my disease and started focusing on the alcoholic.

For those who probably don't remember my father is an alcoholic and my ex boyfriend as well. We broke up when he decided to go into about a month long bender and never called or aknowledged me and hung out with very young girls...althugh he claims that he NEVER cheated. I finally got tired of waiting around and started taking care of myself...going to meetings, hanging out with friends...what normal people do. I met someone right away...I fell hard and fast. I should have known better than to get involved so quickly, but I was vulnerable and became physical with this person without a comittment. It lasted about a month, he got what he wanted and moved on. At that time, my ex had shown major progress...we continued to talk as friends and he was making some great strides. We started to see each other more and more, and after a few months I find that he's going right back to his old behavior...but I think I am too. We are not in a relationship, but basically do everything that a relationship entails.

Im struggling right now because he is right back where he was before. I love him to death, but Im back where I was too. I guess I just needed to share and remind myself that there are peole here who care. Thanks for letting me share