I sometimes wish I didn't have so much to say! Today I am very stoked as we used to say in the 80s. I have more to offer sometimes than I realized. You all have shown me that I am worthy of all things even if I don't work for them.

My life is great even though my ah is not receptive sometimes--he married a 33 year old & now I am 45 changing & growing! Sometimes I get too opinionated  & sometimes harsh. He needs to get more life in him anyhow. I have to put the fire in him don't I?

So, I am working a program. When I was in my 20s I was very active & very independent. My ah is not comfortable w/ that at times. Is it because I don't "need" him as much anymore. I will ponder that thought.

Today I am a free-spirit w/ a mind of my own. I am open to other ideas & accept more than I used to. Like it says in the Big Book of AA which in the old print was like Pg. 449 I think. That acceptance is the answer to ALL my problems today. OK I am a big book thumper.

Check out the book if you are not too afraid of the AA recovery program. There is so much for them but not as much for us but it is worth the look into. Pg. 164 basically out-lines the whole program which we CAN apply to our lives if we want to.

Keep an open mind they say! I hope everyone can benefit from my insights as I have many. Take what you like & leave the rest. The program is simple. But, I have to remember that this is the Alanon program. WE have our own literature that I am trying to use these days.

TAKE CARE CAUSE I CARE!

just me kathleen