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This past weekend I went to an Alanon retreat or round up. My first ever!!!! I was chosen to be a speaker and share my story. OMG!!! I started freaking!!! Not only was it my first round up it was my first time sharing my story!!!! I had RLC's books with me so I read and prayed. I felt him in the room with me when I shared! He would have been so proud. Then I hiked a mountain to an open chapel. Like life the terrain was rough and I had to stop and take a breath. I had to ask for help climbing up and over the rocks. When I finally reached the top it was worth every step it took to get there. I let go of so many resentments and anger I have held onto for a long time. I took in the fresh air and sat out and looked at God's country. I am so thankful and grateful. Life is not always easy but all I have to do is ask for help and I will receive it. I want to thank each and every one of you for your kind words and support.
(((MDK))) Congrats on your first retreat and your first time as a speaker. I'm sure Rodney was there with you and that he was proud. Hey, was this your first mountain hike too? Awesome, isn't it? ¨...all I have to do is ask for help and I will receive it.¨ I'm really learning the truth of that myself recently. Thanks for sharing.
I think its huge you are doing so much despite your grief.
I absolutely tend to give other people a lot of credit for whatver I achieve. Getting support and care and love is alien to so many of us. When I get some I feel like an alien who just landed on earth. So that's what that is?
What a great share and powerful eperience for you.
Attending an Alanon Round up, Sharing your story was huge . I am sure RLC was with you and smiling all the time. Great comcepts about life and the rugged mountain terrain
awww .. great experience for you!! Sooo glad you had the opportunity to go!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
WoW!! MDK...Thanks for that share. It caused a reflection about my current life also up to the minute and I'm also grateful that my HP brought your experience in this post in front of me. Yes life has its rough spots like the steep and rocky path you climbed and like for me what is going on right now with all the rain and clouding my HP uses that to veil the mountain so that I can just stay in my quiet place and not worry or fear mountains and rocky paths but be quiet and grateful. The clouds and rain will pass in time and then also the picture and by that time I will have more solutions. Life is a journey...not a problem. Thanks for the Rodney reminder. ((((hugs))))
I can visualize Rodney, elbowing all the other angels, smiling all over the place, pointing at you at the retreat and screaming, "look, look! Thats my girl! Ain't she something!?
And all the angels, watch and listen for a minute and respond..."gosh, you had a beautiful life experience, that right there is what life is about... sharing and caring."
John
PS. Please send me Rodney's family address and names... I would love to be able to send them a card from MIP showing our condolences soon.
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" And what did we gain? A new life, with purpose, meaning and constant progress, and all the contentment and fulfillment that comes from such growth."