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Jozie's post about changes got me thinking, .. changes what kind of changes have I gone though .. and all I can is WOW!!
This trip really has brought forth some big things for me. Now granted .. lol .. it's only been 3 days I can say that this is one of the best visits with my mom ever. I am not looking for her to try and fix a broken past, I am not trying to change her into someone she is not, in the process we have had a lot of laughs and a few tears.
I'm not buying into what she's selling either. That means for me not going to her pity party. It means that I am responsible for my own needs and I need to be heard. Letting her be her and who she is, which is ok.
I had to laugh today, I have some really funny stories about airports and rental cars and direction .. lol. I did loose my patience today, at the same time once my mom settled down and we got going the right direction I was able to do something I haven't done in the past and I apologized immediately. Now I was sorry I snapped at her however not sorry for what I was trying to tell her.
This is so not a trip I could have done 1 year ago forget about 2 years ago I don't know if I could have done it this summer. So this has been nice. It represents a tremendous amount of change in me. I have been to a meeting since I was here and it was amazing!! I'm looking forward to one on Monday as well.
I'm not expecting miracles and aain there are still more days to this trip I know I am in control of myself and my emotions are not running my show. Today that is a good thing, .. a very good thing and I am actually hopeful for the rest of the trip, not expecting just hopeful.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Extended time with parents is a recipe for bringing up baggage lol. You knew that going in though :) Glad it was mostly enjoyable and a learning experience too!
Good job Pushka! You are giving me hope for my trip in 3 days that I am having alittle anxiety about. I can't wait to get to a meeting out there and see the differences. Sending you love and support!
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