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I have felt stalled in my program. I have been going full bore for a long time and I kind of just stalled out. Now this big thing with 1 of my jobs is happening and I am seeing that I wasn't relying on my HP enough and there is a big lesson learned here. I have gotten off track and I need to face that and get myself back on track. Need ESH for what others have done when they have hit a wall and are stressed to the maximum and are just feeling stuck. I have let my exAH back in a bit and that plays havoc on me emotionally and then this other big thing happened at work and it will hurt me financially and I am now just bottomed out again. The work thing also has to do with an alcoholic I work for. I need to get out of this dysfunctional job situation, but she is making me look really bad. I am glad that I am headed to California on the 6th to atleast get away with my kids and take a break. I am fearful for my job and am needing to find myself on better emotional ground. Send prayers if you do so! Thanks All.
-- Edited by Breakingfree on Thursday 1st of December 2011 02:52:32 PM
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
I've got a similar thing going on here...feel like I'm stuck (at best), or regressing to old habits/ways (at worst).
That's one reason why I asked for members' favorite sayings...I'm trying to find fast, easy ways to remind myself of the program, in order to hopefully put myself in a better frame of mind to work the program.
After over a year, I STILL have trouble remembering to turn to my HP in times of extreme stress. Working that...
i had this same situation with my work for the past 4 years. My female supervisor finds a person to attack and stays with it to the end. I changed my sponsor to a person who had been with the business for about 25 years. He is so pleasant and easy going. He provided just enough buffer that I was able to keep my job. I turned into her project to take me down and out. Thanks for the little bit of security that Shawn provided. With out him I know I would have been fired..the fear and anxiety was with me the whole time. Then the economy finally turned around and a position opened in another department. Went for it..got it. Now I have found peace again with my HP guidance. It was rough going for a while. Hang in there...take care of you...even if it means a change may be necessary.
