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This song by Bright Eyes just absolutely sings to me... about having faith in what God has in store for you.. and letting go.
Some plans were made and rice was thrown A house was built, a baby born How time can move both fast and slow Amazes me And so I raise my glass to symmetry To the second hand and its accuracy To the actual size of everything The desert is the sand You can't hold it in your hand It won't bow to your demands There's no difference you can make There's no difference you can make And if it seems like an accident A collage of senselessness You weren't looking hard enough I wasn't looking hard enough at it
An argument for consciousness The instinct of the blind insect Who makes love to the flower bed And dies in the first freeze Oh I want to learn such simple things No politics, no history Till what I want and what I need Can finally be the same
I just got myself to blame Leave everything up to fate When there's choices I could make When there's choices I could make And now my heart needs a polygraph Always so eager to pack my bags When I really wanna stay When I really wanna stay
When I wanna stay [4x]
The arc of time, the stench of sex The innocence you can't protect Each quarter note, each marble step Walk up and down that lonely treble clef Each wanting the next one Each wanting the next one to arrive Each wanting the next one Each wanting the next one to arrive
An argument for consciousness The instinct of the blind insect Who never thinks Not to accept its fate, that's faith There is happiness in death You get to the next one You get to the next one down the line You get to the next one You get to the next one down the line
The levity of longing that Distills each dream inside my head By morning watered down forget On silver stars I wish and wish and wish
From one to the next one From one to the next right down the line From one to the next one From one to the next right down the line
You get to the next one You get to the next one down the line You get to the next one You get to the next one down the line
I think this is about the coplexity of the human mind. The insect just lives, you know, it flys, it breathes, it accepts its fate.. He says there is happiness in death. I feel comfort from this line.. there is happiness in death. I believe he's right. All the nagging and bickering and forcing and praying ands for what.. as my Mom always said "it will work out.. it will be okay... everything just works out." This is only not true if it kills you.. but then again, if there is happiness in death than this is still accurate.. It will all be okay, no matter what happens.
I take the line at the end about wishing on stars about how praying for what you want is futile. We dont know what we need or what is best. God does. I have completely taken to ending this madness of praying for what I WANT. I am human and I don't know what the future holds or what is even best for me.
Now I pray for humility and peace and to have strength and courage.
I have never felt more free.
I am sorry I keep posting and posting. I am in the midst of a spiritual awakening at the moment and I feel reborn.. bare with me. this too shall pass. haha.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
Girl keep posting! If you are in the middle of a spiritual awakening, then share it with us. I love to hear your insights as to how you are growing and changing.
I Believe In Symmetry. It is an amazing song. Conor Oberst, I believe is a drug addict.. he may be in recovery.. if he is not an addict.. he has the same qualities, addicts, alcoholics and we share, self pity, resentments, but then hope and he has this amazing deep soul to him... he is a wonderful poet and his lyrics are just magical.
Also check out the song Bowl of Oranges ... there is a line that goes: "So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone. And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow." I don't think that's sad. I look at this line hopefully. We are all technically alone in this world and this is why it is necessary to build a relationship with God. On your dying day you will have your HP with you.. and your eyes must do some crying.. oh boy do i ever believe that now!!!
All of his song are incredible. Enjoy. and thanks oldergal and everyone who responds to me. you guys bring me hope, strength, and courage.
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Michelle!
No one can take away your peace of mind unless you let them.
