Scared and lost....and so lonely - Al-Anon Family Group

liljeannie · Senior Member

Scared and lost....and so lonely

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs lilj,

Are you attending any kind of alanon meetings for support? It sounds like you need something face to face to help easy some of the trauma you are dealing with.

Sending you love and support, hugs P :)

Ingwe · Member

I just want to send you love and support. Hugs((( lilj.)))

sookie · Senior Member

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling right now. Remember the serenity prayer and try to find a face to face meeting. Someone there may know of other ways to get help.

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

Did you get an attorney who specializes with SSD? You almost have to anymore.

If he gets you the ssd. He is payed by 25% of what SSD owes you since you first called.

Take thing slow and easy. this is a hard time! love,deb

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

I hope you are able to make it to meetings. I am sending you love and support!

tommyecat · ~*Service Worker*~

Sending you thoughts of support and love.

T

rosielee · Senior Member

i cant work either and cant get paid proper sick pay- my fuel bills amount to 50% of my weekly income- the only way round things i can think of is to do a few hours work a week and not declare it...i really cant thnk of an alternative. im sure people have done worse. i could only do a few hrs a week and cant work proper hours too. we will cope because we have to. my HP seems to get me by- i worry i rely too much on it- but its not let me down yet- and things click into place for me sometimes. i wish i didnt have to live by this fly of the pants type thing.

if you are in a built up area- there may be private- cash cleaning work available for you.

liljeannie · Senior Member

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers! It took me nine years to detangle myself from that relationship, and I can only hope it doesn't take me as long to feel whole again. Even though it was so obviously dysfunctional and on more than one occasion (my bad) he was physically abusive, I still feel that I betrayed him somehow. When the police came to take him away, after he beat me up and broke me this one last time, I felt like I did the wrong thing. When he called me and asked me to bail him out and I refused, I felt like I did the wrong thing...Even still, I ask myself if I made the right choice. The physical wounds have healed, but the emotional and mental ones are still like open sores. I am so worried sick about facing him in the courtroom next month. It will be five months since I have seen him last. I dont want to break down and cry, but I know I will. I feel like he has broken me.

seeking peace,

jeannie

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs Jeannie,

It may feel like he's broken you however he hasn't, if he had you wouldn't be posting and sharing here you still have some spunk. :)

it's not an easy journey to walk in trying to get out from physically violent relationship I am so sorry you are going through this right now. You haven't given up though. It will take time to feel whole again and it will happen a little at a time.

Crying is not a sign of weakness by the way, it's a whole lot of other things weakness is not one of them. Giving stuff like this over to my HP has helped me relieve the burden of excess baggage. It's all stuff I don't need to carry.

Sending love and support during this difficult time.

Hugs P :)

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