Lately I feel as if I am being sucked into a hole, which will swallow me whole and never let me out.

Alcoholism has played a major role in a majority of lives, within my immediate family. Both of my parents, who have never really been together, have overcome their addictions and no longer drink. My mom does, one in a very blue moon, and she consumes a minimum of one drink, on special occasions. My dad was, at one point, a hard drinker; he has not drank for the passed thirty years. My grandmother, on my mothers side, was an alcoholic, and the alcohol was a contributor in her early death, at the age of 67.

I feel as time goes on, I am slowly building a tolerance for alcohol, which I realize will soon become an addiction. I know what I must do and what I should NOT do, but it seems impossible to avoid.

I don't want to drink. Ever. Alcohol is a poison and I want nothing to do with it. It is almost as if once I begin to forget about alcohol, it just pops out of nowhere and invades my lifestyle.

Are there any tips or ideas what to do?

I try to say no to my boyfriend when it comes to buying beer but sometimes I feel so 'down' I just agree to see if the beer will lift my mood. I know this is a horrible coping mechanism but.. I don't know what to do. I want to nib this in the bud before it progresses into anything more significant.

Please, any feedback would help.