It's Driving Day tomorrow woo hoo.  Actually I have a LOT of relief going on right now.  I no longer am responsible for driving my AH to and from places.  I feel so free.  I am chuckling a little because I just found out that I still have one more pick up time tonight.  I think AH is having a little harder time letting go than I am at the moment.  So one last pick up because the is no legal license that is HUGE. Now if he wants me to pick him up it's a want to not a have to and that is a good feeling.  Knowing he would choose to spend time with me vs trapped in the car with me.  He's no longer at anyone else's mercy of when he works, when he comes home and that's going to feel really good for him.  Well, I assume so, I know it would feel good to me. 

The next thing is the evaluation.  I'm a little nervous about that, it's ok (probably two weeks). it's something that is going to happen it's not an if issue, it's a matter of when issue.  I'm just really trying to be aware of my motivation in what I say during the risk evaluation.  So I'm really just giving that over to my HP and praying that when the time comes I will have the right words for the right moment.  It is a highly charged subject for my AH, he doesn't believe he's an A and I believe he has drinking issues.  That's the part I'm the most wary of .. is our perceptions at this time last year were both very different.  I know mine have changed a great deal, I still say Houston we have a problem, however it is not my issue to resolve (right there is the scary part I have to let go and accept the outcome of the evaluation) .. I just don't know where he is at right now.  He has changed, there is no question about that .. he is trying to do the best he can do and I am grateful that he is trying.  He really doesn't talk much about drinking .. he doesn't say he won't do it, he doesn't make the promises, he just doesn't talk about it.  He hasn't said anything about going to AA.  Something I have learned this year is that other people can bring those things up it doesn't have to be me.  It doesn't mean I don't wonder .. I just don't have to be the one to say so .. lol .. how's AA sounding to you about now?  Gee honey does that sound about right, you have an issue with alcohol?  It will be someone else saying the words whatever they are and that will be huge. 

Right now I'm just trying to focus on me as well as being supportive without interjecting unless he specifically asks.  Even then I really try and be switzerland, very neutral.  What do you think?  I don't know.  You might be right.  LOL .. whatever it is that gives the power of responsibility back to him.  That seems to work best for us.  I gotta give the man credit where credit is due and he has stepped up to the plate and taken a swing at more than one situation.  He's done well and I'm proud of him to taking the risk. 

One more DUI chapter closed and a new positive chapter opening it's good to be here this year vs what things were like last year.  Hard to believe the difference a year makes. 

Hugs P :) 

Thanks for letting me share :)