Hi all; the computer troubles persist at home, and my new temp job blocks most non-work related websites.  But I seem to have reasonably good internet access tonight; definitely my HP at work, since I have been in serious need of MIP!

I'm making some progress, mostly because I'm back at work.  It makes a huge difference for me to be out in the world, rather than home alone with a young toddler where I just sit and stew in my own juices all day.  Normal, non-abusive adult interaction has been great for me these past few days.  It also helps a lot that the temp job is fairly easy and my professional stress levels are much lower than they have been in years.

Part of me feels in my very core that I NEED to be focusing on myself.  I look at myself, and at decisions I've made, and I know I can be better, that I can do better.  I know I am a good person who deserves respect and happiness, and that I need to treat MYSELF and my place in the world with that kind of respect.  But the temptation to obsess over my AH's behavior is so strong.  And to wallow in self-pity when the emotional abuse starts.

I am a work in progress.  So today I choose to celebrate my new temp job!