The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am so completely restless .. grieving the pain of the end of this relationship and desperately trying in my mind to come up with solutions to how to change, control, fix, n save it .. I just can't believe this person would Really walk away .. Somewhere along the lines i got it set in my mind that I would only know another person loves me if they come running back to me .. I don't think this person was truly in love with me but then I don't know .. I just know that as they walk away i am feeling more desperate than ever to pull them back .. I can't believe he is Really going .. Outch .. can't even stay on here and type more because the thought of it truly makes me sick tonight !!!
Be easy on yourself, be good to yourself and know each day you are going to be in a better place. You may not see that today or even tomorrow, however it will happen. Just keep taking things one day at a time and get to those meetings that is going to help sooo much.
Hugs P :)
-- Edited by Pushka on Sunday 2nd of October 2011 07:13:32 AM
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
You are going to be okay. Writing about your feelings is good theraphy. It is journaling and expressing your feelings and emotions. Otherwise, you will keep them botled in and that initself has negative consequences. What you are experiencing is normal. Loss of any type is uncomfortable and painful. Have no excuses. Just share how you feel. Also, get a notebook and start journaling. Cry. Tears are healing. We have happy tears and pain-related tears. Eventually, you will cry happy tears. Find fun and recreation, according to Alanon literatures. Do you have friends that can offer moral support. This is a good time to connect with old or make new friends. Alanon says to keep the focus on us. Easier said than done. You can do it! This too shall pass. Sending you hugs.
