I haven't poted here in a while, and really haven't been going to meetings that much either, but I am taking it one day at a time and coping the best I can with my AH.

Well, today I wanted to share that I am no longer keeping secrets. One of my very best friends who I wrote on here that I thought was giving me hints, Well I told her about my AH over a month ago. She was so understanding an knew so much about alcoholism because two people in her family were alcoholics. It felt so good to have a non-alanon member who is a really clos friend of mine completely uinderstand where I was coming from.

Well, a few days ago, I was visiting a friend who was recently diagnosed with cancer (She is going to be fine BTW), and her husband had jus left her. She was in such high spirit and talking about how she can do it on her own and putting her trust in God, and I was likeWOW, that could be me but without cancer! so later that night i messagd her and toldher about my AH. She gave me a prayer to say and was so happy i Confided in her.

And now, this morning I gathered the courage to tell my 7year old Daughter tahat her father is an alcoholiuc. I didn't use that word, but the minute I told her it ishard for him to stop drinking beer, she said "Oh no, so he has a bad habit and he can't stop, just like poeple who bite their nails (I am a nailbiter). So I talked and cried and explained how his body is workin right now and how he tries to stop it's just really really hard for him to control it. She said "I hve an idea, when he goes to the supermarket take the money or te list and cross off beer".  I told her itdoesn't work that way and her smart self told me something it took years for me to learn she said "I knoiw,  I know, he can't stop until HE DECIDES to stop" I was so touched by this little 7 year old girl who I am proud to call my daugher.

ANd in ddition to that, it feels so good to not keep secrets anymor. Like a weight has been lifted and I can share this withanyone wether they are alanon or not. THesupport I have goten from my three friends who I have shaed with is immense. So I just want to say for those of you who struggle, there ARE pepole you can trust out there whowill not judge and who will understand.  you will feel so much better when you do.