The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Some days are very manicky for me. Right now I feel a rush to my head. I am going to make this short as I don't know what to say. I hope this is not a rambling mess.
I want to recognize when I am not feeling up to par. Sometimes I feel like I should get on here every chance I get--like right now. I only usually spend an hour on the computer like 3 or 4 times a week. It is probably a good thing as I could really get caught up in the whole internet craze that sometimes I fall into.
Alcoholism is why I am here but in reality recovery is why I want to be here. My qualifiers are both my husband & my mother these days. I have had three alcoholic stepfathers & I think 2 grandfathers & one uncle that I can actually say were alcoholic. I am not sure where my uncle is--he lives in Nevada I think. Anyhow, I guess I belong here. I hope that I am not rambling at this point & off on a tangent!
I just want to be here. I want to have something to say & let go of the crazies & insanity that I feel almost every day. I have had some really good days of serenity as that is what I am searching for.
I hope this is short enough & that we all read these posts w/ open minds & hearts!
I am with you. This place is a good place for me to get really present with how I feel and what is going on in my life. Signing on here is like getting a dose of reality medicine. When I relate to any of the posts here, I can acknowledge where I am spiritually, in or out of sync. That is a blessing because it helps me to recognize where is my head, where are my feet. When I can reign in my thoughts and awarenesses in to my physical body, I can feel like I have a little more unity and harmony within.
I sometimes spent 3 hours a day here in the early days. Then I had a break for a while. Now I'm back on daily. I know I prefer to keep grounded in the program.
I come and go, but the great thing with this site for me it's always here to help me to feel like I am not alone and there is hope! I can go a week and than be on here for hours, but it helps my awareness and recovery so I don't get mad at myself about my time spent here. Sending you love and support on your journey!
__________________
Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
Al-Anon/Alateen Family Group Headquarters, Inc. 800-344-2666
" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
