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First thanks for letting me post here and share my feelings. From my last post, my AH went to jail friday and I was lost without him. Wow I said was....
This morning is the first morning I didn't cry. This is also the first morning of college without him. It will be ackward because the first 2 classes I have this morning was with him. But I know I need to move on, I cannot change what happened nor can I change him. And crying is not gonna make him come home. It will just give me a headache and make my eyes puffy( need some humor). I have to become strong to fix me. I know I had a lot to do with his drinking. No not my fault he drank but I put up with it. Today I am going to find a F2F mtg. And start attending. I made me a list of what I need to get done. It is different bc I have no one to discuss them with. But whatever decisions I make are my decisions. Wow....sorry had a moment. I do miss him, he is the love of my life but with a problem/disease. I do pray this time away will help him as I hope it helps me. I have become closer to my HP. I my HP has given me strength to get thru these past 3 days. Now its just time to live one day at a time and focus on me. Much easier to write then to do. But I am glad I found this site so I can get support and opinions from others. I do have a good support system of friends too.
Thanks for letting me share. It helps more than you realize.
I'm glad to hear from you again today and to know that you're feeling a little better. It sounds like you're taking the first steps toward taking care of you. I hope you do get to a F2F meeting. Thanks for sharing.
I'm so glad you are headed into class as well as finding a face 2 face meeting they make a huge difference. You will find people to share with as well as a list of phone numbers for people to call. Breaking out of the isolation is huge!!
Hugs again it does get better!! P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I am glad to hear you are going to your first face to face meeting. I do so hope they give you a warm welcome when you arrive. It does get better, one day at a time, one meeting at a time.
Please keep coming back and continue to share. When I was new it lightened my load to receive support and understanding for what you are going through.
As one who has been ona nd off "track" for over 3 years. (and I notice you say you've made great progress in 3 days). I want to say good for you!! please stay "on track" even when you may not feel like trying... it would be great to know someone who got it right away... unstead of trying to "fix" it from my experience all this did was cause me to have regret!! Take care of you.... love yourself (( all things I wish had "stuck " in my heart right away!!))
Sending you hugs and support in this tough time. You sound like you've got your head screwed on straight, even though I'm sure it feels like it's spinning in circles sometimes!
I find that chocolate helps for puffy eyes....okay, NOT! But, I like to think that it helps ;)
Sorry, couldn't help humor. Any little positive thing, chocolate or not, will do.
