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Work was Insane today, Some much to do and I got so Much done, It was Fast Moving, but managable for a change, it was kinda nice... My Husband Took off early to spend the night at camp, and I have to Say, I have had an Amazing Evenning with my Son, The 1st Night I have had him All to myself for over a Month... Life Happens Way to Fast at Time.... Sometimes thats Tough for me Accept...
Tonight I had to Make an Amends to my Son, Because Earlier In the week He Saw me at a Very Weak Moment, and I Lost Control of My Sanity "Over a button Down Flannel Shirt" :O ....Not one of my Prouder Moments for Sure... But A Place I haven't been in a while thanks to this Program, and the Love & Suport I have been Blessed to have... Thank Goodness My Son was the Only Witness to My Rant & Rave & Selfish Moment...
So I Made My Amends for My Behavior... His Response... "Thanks Mom.. Means Alot for you to say that!!!" ... Which then Left me Speachless... (Very Rere Moment for me ;)
We Went on to Have a Wonderful Evenning Just the 2 of us, We left Town to get away from our Normal, Filled up with Gas, Picked a Senic Route, and Hit the ground Running, We Laughed, & Sang in the Truck..lol.. And went to have Dinner, He Even Left the Tip
This Program has been such a Blessing to Me when it comes to Allowing My 14yr old to grow up and become his Own Person... Before this Program I was VERY Controling, Very In His Face, even when he had Earned More Respect then I was allowing him to have...My Ego had Moments where it took over, and would roll in like a steamroller and Smash Self esteems along the way, Just as I was Taught... Now I Feel I Can Hellp Him Build his Self Esteem Instead of Trample it like Mine was all my Life.. So the Way I See it, we are Both Now Growing Together... One "Crazy" Day at a Time...
I Don't know all the Answers, Heck I'm Lucky if I can Figure out One at a time, but I'm Not a Quitter, I don't Give up Easy, and I Will Charge on HP in Heart...
I have Really Taking on a New Roll because of the Tools of this Program, the Principles, the Gifts, the Steps, the Relationships & New Family I now have, The Lit, The Slogans, all things that Gave me a "rebirth" and has taught me that Everyday, I am Blessed with a New Day, Is a Day to Do Something Better then the One before.. I can't make up for All that I have done in the Past, but I Can Make things better from this moment on...
(((((Jozie))))) Aloha No and great ESH, "but I'm Not a Quitter, I don't Give up Easy, and I Will Charge on HP in Heart..." I have come to understand this about you also and it has been awesome watching you grow in serenity and spirituality. Your growth experiences help to mentor my own program and now your son. You carry the message, not the mess to him and to others. For me that is a gift from HP. You deserve the good stuff that comes from working this program of serenity and the fellowship deserves to watch "How it works" as you work it. Thanks for the support ....((((hugs))))
