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Wow I had more steam in my engine than I thought .. LOL. I have rearranged the computer area, which cleared out a ton of clutter. I'm still going through it just taking a quick break. I'm going to pay for this tomorrow .. gak .. oh well, I"m hoping for just some sore muscles.
I'm not sure I like the set up however I am soooo tired of the same ol' same ol' and this is part of my healing for me. When I get my house in order inside and out that will make things so much nicer for my family. It will also be a big turning point for me. I have lived in chaos for so long and it def shows in my home. I want something nice for the family. It makes a difference to have things organized, it is not easy.
The best part about doing this is knowing I can do it. My AH is going to be surprised, I'm curious to see if he says anything, he certainly didn't about the dinning area. Oh well, his issue not mine. I love the way the dinning area looks. All of the clothes are washed and put away. I still have about a load and a half to get through, I'm not concerned about that tonight for sure. I think we're having pizza tonight I'm so not cooking .. lol. I want easy clean up!!
So this is my goal for this month is to just keep moving forward with my house, just like I am in my own emotional healing. Progress not perfection. I don't care if there are a few dust bunnies and so on around however I gotta get out from the clutter!!
Hugs all have a wonderful evening, P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Congratulations on your progress pushka! So glad you're getting your house in order -¨inside and out¨. It really does make a positive difference. Enjoy your pizza tonight. I hope you're not too sore tomorrow. : )
I did get a WOW the house looks so nice out of him .. lol. So I got validated, even though I really didn't need it. I actually feel soooo good that I got so much done. I still have a lot to do it's just a good feeling to know there is some big things out of the way with. I've got sooooo much paperwork to go through and to give you an idea of how bad that is for me the last time I went through paperwork I wound up throwing out our marriage license AND our daughters birth certificate .. ugh! So I will be a LOT more careful this time around.
He was very supportive as far as the kids, making sure they got stuff put away and so on. It was very nice. Tomorrow I will be in the kitchen the next on the list. All I'm trying to do now is get everything under control and then I can continue to go in and detail clean. I'm so very out of control and my house has looked like my life .. gak.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I'm not as sore as I thought I would be .. woo hooo .. I must be in better shape than I thought!!!! I took before and after pictures for myself to remind myself of where I was and I dug out of it!!! Plus I messaged a girlfriend with the pictures (before and after) so I would be held accountable for the finishing of what I started as well. She's given a vow of I will hunt her down if she ever shows the before pics .. LOL .. I know she won't she's not that way.
After the kitchen today I will be able to sit down in my nice clean dining area with my readings and do my self work. That is going to be soooooo nice!!!
Tonight is meeting night which is REALLY nice!!!! I haven't been to meetings in a week, I haven't been isolating either.
Hugs all have a wonderful day!! :) P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Amen Tommy .. LOL .. actually this is kind of funny-ironic. My youngest decided that he wasn't feeling well. The child had not eaten breakfast and said his tummy hurt .. gak .. it has been going through the school. So I kept him home under the guise that it was better than being called in the middle of my day that he needed to come home. Bless his heart, he was drug to drop sissy off at school, we then went to target (there is an inside joke between my bff that there is a Mr Target for as much time as I spend there, it used to be Mr City Water, apparently I've changed locations the tramp I am .. lol). I got him a 7-up to settle his tummy and some chicken soup for lunch. We get home I was working on the house and bless his heart about an hour or so later he says, Mommy, I feel better. I asked him if he wanted to go to school man oh man that boy lit up. He didn't know he could do that .. LOL. So off to school he went. He doesn't have a fever and nothing that goes with a major upset tummy. Of course I got the evil eye at the front office and my response was whatever .. lol. He wanted to go to school why would I keep him out if he's saying he feels better??? I have no idea what was going on however whatever it was he is ok now. He is the kid though for him to miss school or know he's going to miss school you better believe he's not feeling good. My daughter .. LOL .. she better have a fever and an internal organ coming out of her before she stays home, she'll loose her mind thinking he's at home and she's not .. lol. Like they don't see each other enough???
GailM, I'm so glad someone understands my warped sense of humor .. lol. What I really want to type and what I do are two totally different issues .. LOL. I am really enjoying the clean house and now I'm not there booooo .. my internet is giving me grief and I figured since I took my boy into school I'd find wifi hook up, have lunch, take a break and continue on my journey. Something I have noticed is that as I'm cleaning my house there are other things becoming a LOT clearer to me. Last night was really nice too. Cleaning the house brings more serenity into my life which of course allows the family to experience things on a much different level too.
I'm going to make a point of fresh flowers especially if I get them at rock bottom prices. I really enjoy them.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I sooo am kicking butt and I'm soooo glad I took before and after pictures. I just finished the kitchen. I was dragging .. LOL .. partly because I am really sore from yesterday .. sooo glad tomorrow is only the bathroom. It really brings home how hard I am working and how much my home means to me. I'm glad that my AH likes it, however it's weird it means more to me about what I think. Don't get me wrong it feels good to have him say he likes it .. even if he didn't that's ok to. I don't know if that makes sense. I am so far from done .. gak .. that is more than just a little sad. My bedroom is probably going to take a week to dig out. I'm not getting into that until the end of this week. Baby steps it's all going to happen I just have to take it one day at a time.
My daughter came to me tonight and said Mom .. I'm so glad you have made me learn to keep my room up and the things you have had me do. She went into a story in which she said her friends were blown away by the fact she had to make her bed, vacuum her room, and sort through things. This is something at her age I would have been sooo overwhelmed by. I didn't have a clue. I have a child who makes not only her lunch her brothers as well, she is compensated financially for doing her brothers. It's the issue that she is seeing the value in it. I was totally blown away .. it also tells me I'm not doing everything wrong in how I am raising my kids. I am so grateful for the fact that instead of sounding put out for knowing some of these basis life skills she is grateful. That kid is one in a million I thank God for both her and her brother every day.
It also shows me that I am healing on levels that I cannot fathom right now and I thank my higher power for showing me through my daughter that all of the hard work I'm putting out is really paying off. :)
Thanks for letting me share :) P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
