The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I've had a rough couple of days. Feeling a lot of emotions. After all of these months, it is still hard for me to pick up the phone and call someone.
I was sitting outside today, tears flowing, beginning to drown in my own self-pity, trying to grab some serenity and failing miserably. Then, I remembered: I have a new tool called a sponsor. It is up to me to use the tool.
So, I called.
Choking back tears, all I had to say was, "I'm having a rough day." And, she gave me calm and sane words. She did not give me a solution. I didn't even really say much other than, "I'm having a rough day. He's drinking a lot." And my sponsor had the words to give me a dose of serenity.
Though it has been rough today, I am thankful I have some new tools to help me.
I am so grateful for my loving sponsor too. She is having some medical challenges that I do so hope she pulls through. She is quite old and I wouldn't know what to do without the comfort of her sweet voice.
(((vvt))) I don't have a sponsor, or meetings to attend (other than the online ones here - which are great.) This message board kind of takes the place of both for me. We don't always need a solution, just to know that someone cares enough to listen. And understands what we're dealing with. Good job using your new tools. I'm glad that you were able to make that call.
