The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I think I am ready after a lot of praying, anger & consideration to say that my mom can go w/ us to the Speaker Cruise. She didn't mention it all weekend. By the way, the cruise is on the 17th of Sept. so I have a little time to really decide if I am up to making a solid decision to have her go w/ us. As of today, it doesn't sound like an awful idea to just have her this once actually go to this cruise after not going for 2 years in a row.
I am already having trouble thinking about the future holidays that are coming. How am I going to spend another Thanksgiving & Christmas w/ her this year knowing how crappy I always feel when she comes over. I just have to put up w/ her because she has nowhere to go besides our place. I am definitely in the future-tripping mode. Forgive me. I guess my "today" isn't good enough that I am focusing on tomorrow.
I am a real stickler for living one day a time too. Don't follow my example in this post. I have a lot to consider these days. The pressure of just living gets me sometimes. By the way, I am going to have to come up w/ an explanation about two ladies that our TOPS group consider as "ANGELS'. It basically works that our group picked a member that we consider an angel & I have to do a write-up about them. I am hoping that I will say the right thing. I know them both pretty well. And for all of you who don't know what TOPS is--it stands for Take Off Pounds Sensiby & is a support group for people who want to lose weight & keep it off. I have been a member for over 16 years & have been at goal or near it for almost 5 years--I lost about 35 pounds. But that is not what I am here for I am here to share my ESH with all of you.
Take care all of you. Keep me in mind this week as I make my FINAL decision on what to do about the cruise.
Hang in there - you're not alone! Thoughts and prayers being sent your way!
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--Mare
Grateful member of Al Anon
"Live in and for the day, each and every day, starting right now."
Janet Geringer Woititz, Ed.D., "Marriage on the Rocks: Learning to Live with Yourself and
an Alcoholic."
Hugs and good luck, you know no matter if your mom goes or not you will be able to have a wonderful time!!!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
