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Hi everybody. Today for the first time in almost a year my AH missed his appointment with his psychiatrist/therapist. He said he was too tired, but I knw is cause he found this new doctor that will give prescriptions without a session. So I told him exactly that and he snapped. I guess people don't like to be called out on their bushaa.
Well, for the last three hours I've been obssesed with this and thought out two plans:
1.Talk to his friend that hooked him up with this Dr and tell him no to get him any more pills.
2, Talk to my father in law, cause I know at some point he's gonna bring out the subject and scold him for not keeping his appointments.
After losing my mind a bit I remembered about my HP and how I belive that what HP starts, HP finishes. So I'm coming here and I'm leaving all of THIS right here. I'm letting it go. And its sooo scary, cause for some reason my human plan sounds better, silly me. I am, sending him an email explainign how him missing his appointments scares me but that I respect and trust his decissions, though. All my human schemes stay here. I let go and let God.
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Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable.
3 C's, you didn't cause it, you can't control it and you won't cure it. It sounds like you started down the path of best known unhealthy behavior, trying to control and totally backed off. Give yourself a big ol' atta girl :)
Progress not perfection and you got it going on.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Good job lady! It is totally his business. I would not even mention anything to do with the disease. That was how I learned to just love him and detach from that bolony. NOT mine to think about.
Makes it so much easier to stay.If my AH brough it up I said it's totally your choice, your disease.
Gave it no energy.
So glad you got it! hugs and your kiddo is a doll! debilyn
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
Let go and Let God! Nothing you say will ever change the situation. As are set in their ways. It's best to let your HP handle it. Keep coming back to share.
That is why I loved this forum. This was another format for me to dump the garbage in my head when I could not reach my sponsor, go to a meeting, or awake all night with the crazies. So I came here, let it all, then I felt a sense of relief that I shared.