thanx mattie,bud,crazy frog ruby and like my heart for all yalls esh and putting my head on right,this is something ive never addressed cause i never knew how ,i feel so much better now.takeing s-l-o-w-l-y is just what i needed to hear alsothis all was scareing me to death,although he is a super nice guy,im feeling like he is just feeling his needs knowing that soon he will be in a wheelchair and can never drive agin my heart goes outto himbut A WHOLE 6-7 DAYS SPENT WITH HIM DAY IN DAY OUT WHEW,loli dont know how to meet him he has to drive 6 hrs to get here im thinking maybe a coulple of days or better yet give it more time,to early im thinking,took him a while to start talking to me then it was like a vaccume with both of us ,he has alot of health problems from a-z,not due to his fault allwork related,i woul like to meet him but not for 6 days.maybe a day or 2 ,with men it either all or nothing it seems no in between,i do need time here though he has done said nobody would want to marry him in his shape,it would be emotional on anybody,and i cant deal with stress at all.so there i have it we would be going nowhere,waste of my time not his cause all he is trying to do is live life to its fullest,i dont blame him before the big plung hits him and he cant walk anymore or drive.have any more esh feel so welcome yall.yall have just pulled me out of one huge mess already,i hate that im like this with men, i kmow im sooooo lonely,and in needing a companion or wanting,been alone for way so long.....hugs chinup

-- Edited by chinup on Wednesday 17th of August 2011 10:21:46 PM