The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I wish there was a "off" switch. Where did it go? I use to have one. But lately I can't find it.
I want to turn off the feelings, the thinking and the hurt...
I want and need some relief.
I keep praying and begging God to do what He does and to do it soon... but its not happening, instead I am still stuck with me being me. Feeling, thinking and hurting...
Then this morning, I decide I need to get out of myself, do something a bit different, so I go on to youtube.com and look at a few videos..
and end up a mess... an absolute mess...
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-- Edited by John on Thursday 11th of August 2011 03:02:22 PM
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" And what did we gain? A new life, with purpose, meaning and constant progress, and all the contentment and fulfillment that comes from such growth."
Keep on feeling your feelings! Do you work with a sponsor? Mine helps me to walk toward the facts even when I've called her sobbing with the pain of being married to an alcoholic.
God heals in his time. I know it's hard! Hugs to you on your journey--keep working the steps with people who are focused on positive change. You will come through this because you are showing courage in doing the work that many will not embrace. You can feel proud of who you are and that you are re-claiming your own identity and dignity.
Dear John - this song is one I often find myself singing to myself as I walk alone in the rain or the dark - walking to cry out the loneliness and pain in my heart. Yesterday I filed divorce papers, and three hours later I was divorced. Tonight I went to the rescue of my now ex-husband because he went drinking to escape the pain of being divorced again and none of his drinking buddies answered the phone to give him a ride home. The conversations were difficult, the accusations still there, the blame, the lies, the manipulation, and the denial are still active and the words of this song reach into me as if it were written just for how I feel.
The nights are long, and the days are SO sad I just keep thinking about the love that we had and I'm dying inside (I'm missing you)
and nobody knows it but me.
For me, letting myself feel the pain, feel the sorrow and heartbreak, are sometimes the only way to get through it to the other side. Denial of the emotions make them last longer, getting them felt and out in the open, out of my heart, gets me over them faster - at least that is my perspective. I hope you find your way through to the other side of what you are going through - till then, use a soft hanky, its easier on the nose!
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
Pain is the touchstone of all spiritual progress. I have had my fare share of difficult experinces in my life. I lean into my HP and ask Him, what is the lesson in this Father, What are you trying to teach me?
That helps me rest in the "Wait" or "Pause" until action on my part is necessary.
Hi~I think becoming a healthy human means to be able to get through our pain without drugs, alcohol, or any addictive behavior. If we can sit with it, and go through it, then the rest of life is cake. Of course we all have pain at times, and I'm in a better place today, but I know pain, disappointment, divorce, loss, etc., all very well. We have to find what can get us through the bad times~people, movie, exercise, meeting, whatever will work for us. And some days we can cope better than others. The bad, bad, bad time, will pass. It's just when we're in it, it feels like an eternity. If you can get through the day, the next one might be better. Hang in there, Lyne.
