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now have another urn with my ashes in it. I asked the question what are you feeling? and should not have. Had a fleeting opportunity to remember the past and to grab a hold of detachement and didn't. I did the samething again that I did in the past and got the same outcome. Does an asprin cure insanity? A REALLY BIG ONE?
Took my inventory after I took hers and have to own up to 1. double direction resentments. I'm moving quickly into forgiveness before the resentment acid melts every bit of opportunity I have for doing it. I gave my peace away...again. 2. Self will is still running riot when it gets the chance. I cannot share management of my life with God, I've got to turn it over entirely. 3. I'm not exercising the courage to change very well. My enabler system is still in fine tune expecially with those who are "self"ish. 4. I am unconfortable with the condition of insanity but seem to find power in it. The Adrenalin rush sucks and the death spiral is contagious.
I once chaperoned a Al-Anon Conference Speaker who like me has a pilots license and she talked about how to get out of a "spin" when we find ourselves in one.
Cut back on the power, ease off on the controls, Kick in opposite rudder pedal to the direction of the spin, pull back on the controls gently to avoid stalling and when the wings are level....(of course) add Higher Power. I'll never forget it. The wings are level now and Higher Power is being added. It only takes seconds to get into a spin. You get into one by not following the dynamics of flight and paying attention to what is going on and you get into one sometimes by attempting something you know what otherwise has never worked before. Have found a safe place to land like my flight intructor taught me and now it's time to get out of the plane and go stand on firmer ground.
"....the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
I own the consequences to my choices. I'm always listening. ((((hugs))))
Me Me Me Jerry F, let it begin with me, I so get you, I am still reflecting on the the five years it's taken me to get to where I even know that I know I nose dive, i have worried long and hard about changing in case I change that much I don't know who I am anymore, and I still have to practice getting it wrong until I learn to get it right because thats the only way I learn, it's no good telling me if you do it this way this will happen, I still have to do it my way, get it wrong get very angry with myself for falling off my bike again but I just get right back on, I even got the bruises to prove it!
For the last five years I have been trying to forgive my husband for all the hurt he caused me, he isn't doing any of that now though, and just like me he doesn't know how sometimes, and I have been asking god alot lately to please help me do right, and this week I here a whisper, forgive yourself is all, to acknowledge when I am wrong is so so helpful, and freeing, I worried myself silly in the beginning about changing, how could I cope without wanting to help everyone loving them better, trying to manage them all? I still can but now I can do it with the help of peeps like you who teach me, a sincere and honest way of caring.
I love you Jerry F, more than you knowXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Jerry, I am still trying to fly with out HP, and realizing that I have to have HP to fly. Learning to fly...is the hardest thing... Keep coming. I know I will.
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Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me...
Jerry, I just loved the precise words on how to get out of a tail spin. Specifically, in the end, when the wings were level to add back "higher power" It was a beautiful parable. A keeper for me.
Oh, should you find that aspirin that cures insanity, I will come to Hilo and get one from you. :)
Hugs Jerry and thank you so very much for the share :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Great share Jerry! How easy it is to step back into the insanity.... usually without thinking about it. Then you "get there" and you think... "OH NO!!!" This behavior that I have developed over the years, really does take time to reverse and/or correct. Sometimes I go in reverse but I am learning to use my tools quicker and correct my "enabler" ways. Thanks Jerry!!
(((Jerry))), great lesson on how to get out of a spin. I'll have to remember it the next time I'm in that situation. Glad to hear you ¨found a safe place to land.¨ Thanks for sharing.
Much Love to you brother .... I Love that you can Come Clean ....NOW! And Dust off and Carry on, I have always admired that about you, I love that you are Honest, and forthcoming... Something that didn't sit well in my AFamily! So Grateful I can Come here, and Find that Honesty truly is the Anwser, and sometimes not just to others, but Honesty to myself for my own boo boo's... And Believe me, I got my own list! I love the Plane Ride, Great added piece of Recovery....
