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Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

health issues ugh letting it out

Loupiness · ~*Service Worker*~

Ah, Deb, I am so sorry you are having health issues. Holy moly you do a lot! You know I don't have health issues and I am younger, and what you describe would kill or seriously mame me. No joke.

I will keep you in my prayers, that the Doc figures out what is going on. Can you get a ride to all your appts? You need to take care of yourself. Please rest as needed.

I don't know why, but your last paragraph that mentioned "everything was normal" and "Harold the Slug", in the same sentence cracked me up.

You are right in that we do not know the results of our efforts, and I have a suspicion, Deb, that you are someday soon going to be rewarded big time!

Blessings,

Lou

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs Deb,

I hope your health issues get resolved!!! Loved the stories about your critters, they are all so sweet looking. :)

Keeping you in my prayers,

P :)

hotrod · ~*Service Worker*~

smile Dear Deb

I am so sorry that you are feeling poorly Please be gentle with yourself and only do what you can comfortably do without strain. Trust HP

Thanks for the wonderful pictures of your critters They are precious

GailMichelle · ~*Service Worker*~

Hi Debilyn,

Sorry to read about your health issues. I sure hope you'll recover soon!

You're an amazing woman - great attitude. smile Despite your pain, you keep going. I do hope you listen to your body, however. The pain is there to warn you. It's hard to slow down, I know. There are cycles in life, as you well know. Perhaps this is your time to slow down, rest, and enjoy all your animals.

Enjoyed your pictures.

Take Good care, Gail

Otie · Senior Member

Dear Debilyn, so good to read your post, and I am am also concerned about your health problems. Please do pace yourself--at least until you get a handle as to what is going on.

Your determination is an admirable and valuable asset! I take a lot of my inspiration from your caring, sensitive and wonderful posts.

Thanks for putting the picture of Stinker with your other babies. I have a special feeling for stinker.

Love, Otie smile

-- Edited by Otie on Sunday 31st of July 2011 11:28:32 AM

shellyj123 · ~*Service Worker*~

(((((DEB))))

My heart goes out to you girl. I feel your weight and your struggles,and wonder too if HP is looking down and calling us stubborn!:)

I've finally started to accept my limitations a little more, and am truly trying to stay in this one day at a time....just for today.

Rest and take care of you too Deb....if your critters are anything like mine-they'll be right by your side when you wake up....refreshed with a little lighter load...

wishing you peace, clarity and good health

shellyj

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

Lou I live a rewarded life now! lol I mean who wouldn't be happy with a fenced in area in front of their recliner full of guinea pigs playing???lol

Pushka, Sweet? hmmm maybe when they are sleeping. lol I am blessed with a great critter family. Dogs mind me,its amazing was not hard to do either. Just taught them how they understand.

Betty my life would be so freaking boring with out this animal family I get to live with!they make me laugh every day!

TT Tavish has my heart.He was there thru loss of my Mother and A and Fergus the Basset who was stolen. He has slept next to me what? like eight years now. I carried him so much when he was little he would not walk when we left the property! lol He would be tripping over his long puppy ears whining for me to come nap so I did. Just became part of my life. I love all my dogs, but my Tavey boy, scares me actually...

Gail tu. Hp our Father is who helps me with my attitude. It's genetics too. gma and my mother were very caring, loving an mellow. We honestly don't complain much in my family or my used to be family. At least I am blessed to have all these memories, I know how it felt to be treasured.

Otie I thought of you when I put StinkerSpitfireTrouble on here. lol Isn't she getting big fast??! I swear she wakes up "flying!" Who can I jump on first, oh lets bite this tail and eww lets grab Happys face, I got your leg! I can jump over two of you at once and land on PopPop! There's mom! Ok lets chomp that bare leg and grab her flipflops....alllll true lol

Shelly all I can do is sit! Its wierd. My hands shake too. May be low blood sugar. I keep nuking things to eat then forget to eat them! lol

I am too young for this bolony but no more pushing me. Well uno I sleep well and most times wake up feeling good Shelly, I mean WHO wouldn't when ya have a pomeranian and little poodle on your tummy play fighting, a kitten biting at your toes under the covers, basset whining to cuddle, and A great Pyr,newfyx and poppop whining and hopping to go outside! not to mention my face smells like dog kisses...gads. haha

I put all the g. pigs in a big inside doggy fence area its so much fun to watch them. they are having a balst!

Gailey · ~*Service Worker*~

(((Deb)))

I cannot believe all that you do but I am happy knowing that your animals bring you so much joy.

Have you spent a winter there yet?

Gail

Rora · Senior Member

YOu are the most optimistic, upbeat, grateful hurting person I know!!!! :)

An inspiration to us all.

Rora

hawaiilover · Senior Member

Hi Deb: Sorry to hear about your health challenges. Please, take it easy and be gentle with yourself. I can assure you that you have a great support group on this forum. Take all this unconditional love and let it all in. Love conquers all. Wishing you all the best, my e-sister.

Hawaii

xeno59 · ~*Service Worker*~

((( Deb )))

So relate i am cryin for you. I had been getting sick for so very long but trying to take care of my brothers health needs long distance or flying/driving back and forth to CA to of course spend time with my brother before he died but working closely with his medical team educating myself on his disease and going in day after day with all my suggestions ( demands lol). Went to the Dr a few times during all this cause I knew things weren't right in my body but my doctor was chalking it up to stress etc.
Lost 10 lbs the last month before my brother died, as i am already severly under weight with an eating disorder that until those last few months I had kept in check. Needless to say I didn't have 10 pounds to lose period and that finally caught the Drs attention. Had other symptoms I won't go into detail with as a little TMI lol so put thru a series of tests. Which showed a severe lung obstruction (COPD). My body was so oxygen deprived my internal organs were shutting down. The biggest and last symptom was my distorted thinking, memory loss, sleep depravation, confusion etc. My brain wasn't getting the oyxgen it needed to fuction. Except for the fact i had no paralysis i showed many of the signs of someone with a stroke.
Anyway ordered to immediate 4 weeks bedrest with oxygen 24/7. I was ok with that if it got me better because when I left my brother for the last time he was doing so well, the doctors had great hope that he had 6 or more months to live and was a possible cantidate for a liver transplant etc so if I was gonna be sick this was a good time. Or so I thought.
My brother died within a week of me leaving him, I had just started my bedrest and oyxgen. I was just devestated on all fronts. My doctor ordered me NOT to go to the funeral, not to even think about it. HA was he kidding not attending was not even an option for me and we did a turn around flight I was gone 20 hrs. Even that was unaccpetable to me, not to be able to spend more time with his children and other family but my husband put his footdown. I got home, advised my doctor i had flown to CA for a few hours and was ordered in for a check up. Just that short amount of time not following Dr's order was a huge set back for me and added 2 weeks of bedrest and oxygen. But I would do it again in a hot second. Nothing was going to stop me from honoring my brother ( who was also celbrating 13 yrs of recovery ), I even got up and eulogized him and his life. Those will always be pricless moments for me.
But my condition is progressive, slow moving but fatal. I did my required bedrest UGH felt like climbing the walls. But it gave me a lot of time to think.
Had I been taking care of me? nope Had I been putting my program first and foremost? nope Was HP (whom I call God ) trying to send me a message? Um Yea BIG TIME. I no longer despite what is going on around me have the luxury of taking my focus of me and getting into other peoples business, not even my beloved son (A). If I am going to live another 20+ yrs I now have to put me first. And days that I don't it is quite noticable. Right now I am only on oyxgen at nght, i took a chance the other night and tried to sleep without it...the next day my brain was not functioning as it should. Lesson learned. There are days when the air quality is poor or humid and that means more oyxgen during the day.
I am waiting on disability and until or if that goes thru I am stuck keeping close to home because I can't afford portable oyxgen on top of what I am paying for the oyxgen concentrator that I have. So no vacation to see family this summer nothing.
But I am grateful that while I am never going to get and better than I am today I can still do many things I enjoy. My dogs are a constant source of love and support and a hovering husband lol that watches my every move in case he needs to call 911.
So now that I have poured out all my problems ( well the health ones) to you my point really was that I am here to commiserate with ya. You are not alone, not in the program and not in facing the reality of your body turning on you long before you were ready for it. I am here for you if that counts

Wishing you all the best in staying healthy
Blessings always

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