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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My ah continues to drink, is now on day nine of his latest binge. He's never gone this long before and it scares me. But I know there's nothing I can do about it. Last month we moved into separate rooms so at least I don't have to watch what he is doing to himself. I sometimes think he's trying to drink himself to death. But just like I can't make him stop drinking, I can't make him want to live if he doesn't want to. I hate that he is going through this. It makes me sad and it hurts. I know that he is hurting too. But I truly am powerless over it. I am TCOMF and taking my joy and serenity where I can find it. I am so thankful for alanon and especially for this board. I don't know how I would get through this without them (and all of you.)
I want to send you a HUG. It's hard to watch someone be consumed by this disease. It's even harder when it's someone you love. It hurts. You are doing the only thing you can do, falling back on your program, and reaching out to others who understand as perhaps no one else can. I know from your past posts you turned your AH over to your Higher Power. HP is in control. Your husband is in the best hands he could posibility be in, and you are doing the best thing you can do for yourself...TCOYF.
Sending lots of prayers to you and your family. P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers. I can certainly use them. Deb, still having trouble sleeping through the night but at least now when I wake up I'm able to get back to sleep. So, that's progress.