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Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers about my cat Dusty. We did not find him yet. I am however using my new tools and not settling on doom and gloom about it. So I will continue to think positive thoughts and hope he comes back. I hope his asthma didn't take him.
I am working on my recovery, taking it a day at a time. I feel I had a good weekend and past week in regards to my alcoholic. We are really doing well together, he is trying and we had a nice talk about our life together yesterday. Through my alanon (hope to be sponsor) friend, I have learned a lot about talking with my fiance. She suggested I thank him in earnest for the smoothies, because just like us, the A has low self-esteem and likes to be acknowledged. He always makes sure to thank me for things and so reciprocating feels good :)
I have always kind of felt like an alien. I know that sounds funny, but for real. I have always felt so different than everyone else. Like I didn't get the memo on how to live life or something. Then I come to Alanon/AA/ACOA and I realize that there are others out there like me. I thought I was so unique and weird and such. I am the type of employee that bends over backwards for a place, does everything she can to make everyone happy and then I burn out quick and want to quit my job because I am tired of everyone and the job itself. So I have never held a job for very long. The longest job I had was being a nurse's aide, and that care-taking position was my favorite but I got hurt doing it so I can't do it anymore. I feel like I have spent my life just not knowing how to live it right. Now with alanon, I am learning that there is a memo or manual so to speak...its living this spiritual program, learning new tools to live my life with in all my affairs...
Taking care of me has always been hard. Little by little I am doing it. I am learning to let go and let god. That song by the Beattles struck me this weekend... "When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, Let it be..." Let it be. I think I will. There is no need to get so hyped up anymore, I can live and let live and take care of me. Thank you all.
Again, thanks for the kitty prayers. We are going to go door to door tonight and ask the neighbors.
youfoundme...
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-youfoundme
Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me...
So glad you are doing so well!! Way to work your program One Day at a Time :) It's the best any of us can do! :)
P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Isn't there tremendous strength in knowing you are not alone? I have seen you change so much across these last few months. It is such a wonderful lesson learning how to practice self care and living a good life one day at a time.
Keeping it simple, being grateful for the little things really helps to lighten our loads and improve the relationships with others.
Still praying for you kitty. I do so hope you find him soon.
"Let It Be" is a song that goes through my head too when issues bug me. I used to sing alone with it as a teenager, not ever really giving any thought to the message of the song. Decades later - I get it! Late Bloomer, I am, I am.
I sure hope your kitty cat is being care for by someone who rescued it! Praying your will find it and he is safe.
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You have to go through the darkness to truly know the light. Lama Surya Das
Resentment is like taking poison & waiting for the other person to die. Malachy McCourt
