Live & Let Live!    For me, it has taking these Last 2+ years to really HEAR what this Says to me! Because I thought I was LIVING in the existence of my life, and here I come to find out that I was Only Making Waves! It says in my Book that if I am Living, I need be living Fully, richly, & happily to fulfill my Destiny

Amazingly so,  I found I wasnt any were close to those things, I was Fully Disgusted with the Direction my life was going, I was Richly Sinking in to the Alcohol pits of hell & as for the Happily, well I Faked that 90% of the time with Small Jokes, brush offs,  and Tons of Sarcasm as to either convince Me or You that All was Good in the world!

Since I began this New Life Journey, and New Direction of Self Love, I do see where I am Open more to the Happily ever after, I am allowing my life to be Full of Those that Care about me, and I do my best to Live a Full Life, and I am Richly Reaping what I Sow from just these Small little changes over time! Something I did not see for my Future, just over 2 short years agoWhich then leads me too Progress Not Perfection!

The 2^nd Part is Let Live, When I 1^st heard that my Arrogance thought Well Hell, I am Letting them Live, its their choice, Not Mine how they Wreck their life, it has nothing to do with me, Im not happy about it, and I am sure to voice my Opinion But it has nothing to do with me!

And then in my Daily it Say: Let Others Live as They Wish Without Criticism or Judgments  from Me!  Ouch! Well I then learned that I havent been letting them Live at all I was so Hell bent on wanting them to be something that they are not, that I very much pasted judgment, & criticism I never seen that as Me Taking From them what they really are But more what I Wished them to be!

Recently I got to Practice this Very Slogan up close and personal, and I have to admit that when it 1^st happened, I went Completely Nuts on the Criticism & judgment to the point every day I was struggling to find the serenity I had lost over this To the point that I was losing sleep because I could not control the situation, and I was POWERLESS I was Forcing my Will on to others, because I forgot to stay on my own side of the street thru the chaos, and just because I did not agree with or did not accept what they were saying really Blocked my Recovery for a couple weeks I started to shut down, give up on me and my program because I felt like Because of them I was Failing, so in the Eyes of Others I Felt I was Failing as well When the Reality was It was Solely Because I had handed them My Power.. I allowed their words to feel true about myself, I allowed their view of me to Cloud the Reality of My Own Thoughts!

I Realized I am the Only one that Knows Who I am, and I am the Only one that can Say whether I am that Retched person I was Portrayed as.  It took me a lot of Prayers, and Chats with my Program friends in order to see, it wasnt Just me! They had their part to own, but if was not my job to do their inventory for them, when I could barely do my own!  

Which then sent me back to the slogan Let Go & Let their God be judge & jour Its not my place

Now they still try heavily to push my buttons on a Less Regular basis, and when that happens I STOP! HALT! & THINK! Before I react to thee old games   And I have learned that Not Reacting at all seems to keep the ambers cool for at least a little while!

I also Learned that tho I have not Mastered The detach with love I have managed Just for today to Solely Detach! I go where I know they are not, I stay out of their Life and the best I can out of their way, in order to get back to the things that I did at one time Love about them, and about me, so tho there is Physical Detaching going on it has given me a chance to Look more at My Program, and More at what I need to change about Me, before I can even think about having them in my life! I have to know that I have boundarys in place to protect myself so as this does not happen again! Not Like that!

I have learned so much from this experience alone that I can now see and accept that I have to run my own program, and my own life, and it is not my job to do so for others! Even if My Intensions where from HeartI can have My Thoughts, I can have My Opinion, but it is best kept Under Tongue! Because the Next Question I Now Ask myself is?  

How Important is it!

Thanks for Letting me Share

Jozie