I am here again taking advantage of the library system on this computer! I have to try to get on here as much as possible because I need to focus on the Alanon program today! I am so grateful that I can be OK sharing about just about anything.

My anniversary is tomorrow as I have mentioned in a previous post. I am so glad that my Ah & I got through the last nearly five years & are able to say that we have a successful relationship as I see it! In 2006 we had a separation because my Ah wasn't able to stay sober or sane during the summer & into the fall that year. So, with much consideration & advice, I was able to make that decision. I wasn't even sure that I wanted to do it. The best part of the decision was that I was able to live just down the street in an apartment. I think HP was trying to tell us something during that time as I was able to spend a lot of time w/ him(my husband)mending our relationship.

Today we are in recovery & have a lot to be grateful for. I am able to enjoy the quality time we now have & can see the good in him that I never really saw before. He has been a bright & shining light in my life. I can truly say that he almost saved my life the past few months by helping me believe in myself again. I didn't have to be hospitalized because he refused to let me fall apart by helping me w/ all my issues until I could again stand on my own--literally! I had some moments that I could hardly walk because of somethings that I did that nearly ruin my health, spirtually, emotionally, physically & mentally! Have I covered all the areas? I almost hit a bottom but now that I can see the light of day, I am not there anymore.

It still & will always be One day at a time for me. I didn't get here in a day or two, it has actually taken a lifetime.

There is hope even for me! I can truly say there is hope for everyone--we just have to tap into that positive place. I really don't know how to describe what I mean except that I know we can do it--no matter what!

Kathleen