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I have been with my abf for over six years, i have been in al anon for nearly 4. ou journey has been a bumpy one thanks to alcoholism. he was sober for 6 months then relapesed over 6 months hit rock bottom went to a 6 month rehab then a three months dry house and was doing great. I understood he was sick and kept going to al anon and tried to educate myself and protect myself and ;leave him to sort himself out. When he went through this long rehab i wanted to run but he was trying so hard. now he is strarting to slip again a couple of times since leaving the dry house. he went missing on friday his niece called and said he was at his mums saturday drunk. So i have worked my programme gone to meetings, used the phone, read, prayed and took care of me. he turned up today i was sunbathing in the back as i am off work with stress. i opened the window told him he could not come in and went inside till he ;left. I love him, but enough is enough. I just want to move on i am fighting the guilt i want to enjoy life again. I can not watch another rock bottom, i can not support through a nother rehab i want to be happy.
In alnon they told me we will love you till you love yourself i think i love myself a little today i will pray for him. I have to have some contact to sort final issues out e.g his stuff hope i can stay this strong i really want to move on create life i desearve .
hugs tracy xxxxx
-- Edited by Tracy on Monday 11th of July 2011 11:12:40 AM
In alnon they told me we will love you till you love yourself i think i love myself a little today
And we still love you til you love yourself from head to toe ... probably even after that I can hear your sadness in your post but I can also hear calmness and a willingness to do whatever is needed to make the best decisions for you. One day at a time. Prayers and wishes.
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Stay strong, make God very big in your life. I read in CTC pg 180 "life is too important to waste waiting for someone else"s choices, even when It's someone I dearly love".
Great support and responses ((((Tracy))))...Keep on keeping on cause this program does work when we work it. When we turn the alcoholic over, God never makes appointments with us to explain how things are going. When I turned my alcoholic/addict wife over and the other alcoholics in my life I learned the person who needed me the most was me. Keeping it simple. (((((hugs)))))
I can hear your sadness in your post but I can also hear calmness and a willingness to do whatever is needed to make the best decisions for you. One day at a time. Prayers and wishes.