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i know well in my heart that the life i had before with my a/bf didnt and wasnt gonna ever work so did he so we r now separated completely havent heard or seen him in over a month im beginning to miss him sooo very much and wanting to c him agin=mistake,thats my slip,i loved him soo much even though he done me so badly and never paid me back but he is a alholic and druggie and or was a life long junky,lol whats wrong with me he never will get in any recovery program or hit his bottem,i was always so scared he would hit his bottem with me,in a bad way,but as of today right this moment im holding still although i did have a freind of ours call him today just to see if he is ok,and he was working as always if not drinking he is working himself to death.i have to refocus myself and get really busy with myself and get my mind off him and into something thats working my recovery for sure ,its scary for sure,im scared of myself of getting myself back into something like that relationship agin.hopeing and praying this too will pass soon and ill move on just a not so good day for me.missing him is not good for me cause i end up slipping back into old ways of thinking and behavior thats why i call him my x my slip.ty all for listening to me ramble on n on,hugs chinup
Hugs, you gotta give yourself some cheers :) You see yourself wanting to slip!! That's a biggie :) Thanks for the share :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Your "Nick" says it all. Keep your "chinup", don't look down and stare. The next time you have that "Old Stinking Thinking" go into your bathroom and look in the mirror......the person you will see in the mirror is the one you need to keep the foucs on. Keep working your program, your doing good. Awareness is 90% of the battle.
Pushka is right, atleast you see you the fact that you might be slipping. I think thats a big step for us newbies. Whenever I start missing my AH i just think about how horrible he was to me and I am able to say F - bomb that guy! lol I need to love me!!
Then I start thinking about what I could do to improve myself and take my life back. After that I thank my HP for giving me a new pair of eyes to see the world through!!
Stay strong.. we are all here for you
xoxoxo
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I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle all my problems at once.
I have heard it said about relationships that there is only one question to ask before geting back together. "What has changed" If I keep working my program I hope to be able to say "Me, I have changed and now I am ready for a helathy relationship" I can not change someone else. It takes a lot of time and work to change me but I can see the rewards each day. I am not inclined to settle for a poor relationship anymore.
All the best on your journey
"No one can change a person, but someone can be a person's reason to change" -Sponge Bob
-- Edited by All I can be on Monday 11th of July 2011 10:36:02 AM
