saturday morn - Al-Anon Family Group

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

saturday morn

flopadopilus · ~*Service Worker*~

I just love you and your posts! You are so amazing with your animals and attitudes toward life. Keep up the good work!

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs Deb,

Sounds like it still might be a good time to hit a reunion especially a 40th!! Enjoy the creatures, have room for ants to go with the slugs? LOL! Have a lovely rest of the weekend :)

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

Dear Flopadophilus, haha well at least someone does lol!! It's just what comes out of my head/heart! I think if Al Anon had not caught me before I fell, I would have lost all the wonders of life.

I know my HP knew what I needed. Of course number one is HP and what he teaches, but he also wants us to glean the best of what we humans offer to each other.

Pushka gads you would mention ants. I went to bed, had my reading light on. Stinker kitten was looking at something. Two sizes of ants were fighting in the corner!!! ALL I need is a war when I am trying to read and go to sleep.

I touched a few of them and told them to mellow out and go home...some left, but the others would not stop fighting. In the morn the rage of battle left many casualties....I have yet to vacumm them up. gross.

then I had a very sad icky experience today. I was gathering some stuff from a sack in the shop/guest house. A mouse jumped out and scared the uno out of me. Then I look, dang baby mice. I mean newborn. I felt sooo awful. I carefully got them all out, put them in the nest and put it where she ran. I put sunflower seeds and water down for her.

I honestly was born like this. I hope HP will help her find them. They are too small to feed or I would.

I feel this pain in my tummy I feel bad.ugh.

Well gotta go wash the mayo/egg and baby oil out of my hair, out of conditioner....

shaking head....You would mention ants.....gads

tommyecat · ~*Service Worker*~

Deb,

You remind me of St. Francis of Assisi. He is honored by the Catholic Church as the patron saint of animals and ecology. This prayer is attributed to him, also found in the AA 12-12, but I don't think anyone has been able to trace it back to his lifetime, the 13th century. Its one of my favorite prayers, you are one of my favorite peace keepers and animal lovers here. Here's to you, my dear:

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love.

Where there is injury, pardon.

Where there is doubt, faith.

Where there is despair, hope.

Where there is darkness, light.

Where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,

grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;

to be understood, as to understand;

to be loved, as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive.

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

GailMichelle · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs to you Debilyn!

I am a avid gardener here in the Central Valley of California, were garden snails are not in short supply!

How I wish I could ship my snails to you! They love my flowers - darn it!

Pushka · ~*Service Worker*~

LOL .. Gail, I was thinking about that with mice and tomato worms, as well as a few ants :)

xeno59 · ~*Service Worker*~

(( deb ))

Please keep taking care of yourself !
I haven't been on the boards much for a few months as life seemed to completly overwhelm me.
I too had been getting sick for months but pushing it out of my mind and pushing myself beyond my limits. My brother was dying and he signed over his medical power of atty to me. He was 700 miles away so was busy going back and forth to be with him and working with his medical team. I slipped into a false sense of control as i worked with his medical team who were very positive that he had some time on his hands, time enough for them to work with him to get him strong enough for a possible liver transplant. Thought I had it all in order the last time I left him. So i took the time to get back to my Doctor for a check up as I listened to my body that was rebeling against me. Got a diagnosis I certainly didn't like, COPD a lung obstruction that is progressive and fatal. But if i took care of myself as it is a slow moving disease I could have 25+ yrs left. But I had ignored my body for so long that the disease had begun because it was recieveing so little oyxgen to shut down my internal organs, including my brain function. I was put on immediate bedrest for a month with oyxgen 24/7 and what seemed to be a ton of meds to open up my lungs.
UGH the last thing I wanted was to be in bed for a month and already started working on plans to get back out to see my brother the minute I got the green light. And as much as I thought i was in control he died a week later.
All the planning in the world could not overcome the fact he was tired of fighting, that he was ready to be at peace and go home to God.
I had strict orders from the doctor i was not to stop my treatment even for a day to attend my brother's funeral. HA that wasn't even an option for me not to attend my brother's funeral, and somehow I even got the courage to get up and speak for my brother and honor him one last time. It was a very quick turn around trip 20 hours in all. But my Dr was right just those few hours got me a huge set back and 2 more weeks of bedrest. And I would do it again in a hot second.
But then i had to get into reality and work on me, I was angry at my brothers death, angry at God, angry at myself for not taking action sooner angry at the world. And while I was already disabled with injuires angry my body was turning on me. I kept going to meetings but really lost my program for a long time. Now trying to get back on track.
But I tire so easily now, I try to stay busy but it is hard when I am tired so much.
Lord Sorry to go on about myself..... my point really was to urge you to take care of you.
You are always in my prayers
Blessings

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

Oh gail and pushka ya just gotta lovem, give them what the need and they will go away. I pick my strawberries and leave some picked ones for the giant slugs.

I would put tomatoes on the ground. Ants are so smart. Except when they are fighting next to my bed.

My baby mice's mouses, mice mom? She came back, had a couple sunflower seeds and took them to a safe place!!!whew.

xeno, oH nooo I am so sad for all you have been thru and going thru. you were there for your brother, that was very very brave and loving of you. not many people hang around when someone is dying. I don't get that at all, I cannot give myself a thought when a loved one is dying. I am driven to be there.

I am proud of you for getting up and talking.

As for your diagnosis, when I first became disabled for along time it was soooohard. I had to stop working. to look at me,even now you would not know something is wrong. People can be very mean with their ignorance.

I had to learn to stand up for myself, which I partially learned right here, we teach others how to treat us. Plus my two docs are the best and my friends.

Yes we must rest in between things now. I used to work 9 hours straight,no kidding at the animal sanctuary that was my home. I won't forget being on crutches in the snow trying to give out hay.

You are right. I am making an app with one doc on monday. we are going to figure my leg thing out. I am going to demand it. He is great but puzzled. I am paying attention so can give him more of the symptoms.

The other I am paying attention to symptoms too. It hurts really bad on either side of my lower back when it happens, I can feel my heartbeat, going like crazy, super nauseated,feel like I am going to pass out and die.

Today I started in so took my temp. was only 96' I have no idea what that means.

Just like you, gotta take this seriously. I am 58 now.xeno are you on a special diet?

I have no junk in my cabin. Fruit is dessert, yum pretty much a vegan. I will eat eggs if they are available.

I only eat sprouted bread...Dave's Killer Bread....sooooooo gooood.

I can tell more fat is going away. But I tell ya lady, I don't get it. I am usually good at diagnosing something, but this has me stumped. It is not from medication like doc thought.

I tell ya it is important to change what we eat.

Anger is a part of being sick hon. I hate that part. After the last surgery I was insanely mad! I am NEVER like that normally.

Our body is trying to tell us to stop. you know if we do have long longivity, we want to be as healthy as possible.

Grama was 106, she did this thing I do too. Do you have a genetic predisposition?

I am concerned about you. Do you have others to help ya? I KNOW I HATE asking for help.

My brother was here today, not blood brother. We walked down to the cliffs by my place. he was freaking out, u are too close, trying to get me to hold his hand, getting ready to catch me, gads. I kept yelling I am FINE.lol

wanted to hit him with my walking stick. These cliffs are about twenty feet up of solid rock.

BUT I don't like help from certain people. My son its fine,daughter too.

I cannot remember, do you have kids? My daughter accepted my limitations a long time ago.

But my son its been very very hard. he is just recently seeing I am old. finally. when we went fishing he kept asking if I was ok. was nice. daughter acted like I needed a wheel chair...sheesh not that bad yet.

soooo you may have to make it clear, you need to slow down to others too. And it can go up and down. I coulld walk to my mailbox yesterday but did very ok today.

sure hope you feel better now. get netflix it really is nice to watch fun movies.

Hugs hon, keep in touch! love deb (((xeno)))

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