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Through this journey, I am learning so much about myself and my HP. Last week was extremely challenging: I found out my AH has an arrest warrant out on him for writing bad checks, he's also has been calling my adult daughters and telling them that I abandoned him in his time of need (he fails to mention that he has emotionally abandoned me for over three years), a good friend's husband committed suicide, and I got a ticket for going through a red light (I made the mistake of talking on my Bluetooth to my friend during a very emotional conversation about by AH). The ticket is going to cost me around $300- $300 that I don't really have right now.
Mind you, all of this came to pass in this past week. By Thursday, I was in the thralls of a major pity party. I was not looking forward to the weekend since I had a memorial to attend and my daugthers were not calling me because they felt bad for their dad. So....I took advice from Alanon, my sponsor, and this forum and tried to do something for myself. It's the end of the month, so doing something that involved spending money was not really an option for me. The apartment complex that I recently moved to (after leaving my AH two months ago) has a jacuzzi, which I had never thought to use. After noticing my long unworn bathing suit in my dresser, I decided to go take advantage of this cost-free option.
After sitting in the jacuzzi for about 10 minutes or so (I had it all to myself, what luck), I began praying to my HP. I asked him to show me a path (which he has been doing for me ever since I gave up control). Very quickly I came up with a "divine inspiration": I met a single mom the day before who was moving in to our complex that day with her three young children (I also work at the same place she does). Since I miss not being about to cook for my family- and I love to cook and bake- I decided then and there to contact her and ask her if I could make a meal on Sunday for her and her kids. And what do you know? She gladly accepted my offer.
So, instead of feeling lonely and depressed (like I usually do on Sundays, which used to be family day at our house), I spent the day cooking and baking. The day went by very quickly and the family was so genuinely appreciative- it was definitely as "win-win" situation.
Were it not for my HP and my Alanon support, I don't know how I would have made it throught this past weekend. But you know what? I did and I am thankful for my life and serenity today.
Have a great week!
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Okay now I feel compulsed to buy a Jacuzzi...Dang just when the financials just went into the toilet. LOL God in a Jacuzzi!! Almost want to imagine what kinda bathing suit HP had on. Seriously Green Eyes you were brought to a 12step the "help others" part of our program and you're working it. Thanks for passing on what works at MIP.
Green Eyes: So sorry to hear about all that you have been through in one week. When it rains, it pours. Thank God you have the tools of Alanon. You managed your situation well and worked your program. Good for you! Sending hugs to you.
