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Jennifer


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I am so frustrated today. I have lost and chosen to lose many friends and my exAH to addiction behavior I am unable to live with. I live simply and pretty isolated except for a couple of handfuls of people who know alot of my daily life. Of those people roughly 5 know about the nonnarcotic medications I have to take in order to maintain my vision and spinal function. Although it is a sad miracle this morning my HP wanted me to know one of my trusted people should not be. I woke up late, my Mom showed up early for our day and came in instead of me meeting her outside. I would not have ever seen them but she saw some of my medication on my porch outside where any child, dog or animal may have come across it. These are dangerous medications, if you don't have to take them you wouldn't want to. This stuff comes into my bathroom sealed, is put away where none of my animals can get it, and never leaves the bathroom. Nobody has used my bathrrom in the recent past while I have been home. I am so hoorified by what could have happened. And so grateful the morning's timetable went haywire.

I live alone, I already have a 200 pound dog, I have plans to change the locks since there must be a key to my house out there, thankfully my exAH is still in jail so my brain isn't going there ... I am fine with losing whoever in my life decided to violate me in this way, finding and dealing with who without going back to that snoopy, insane, don't trust anyone person is what is on my mind and has me so frustrated. I truly thought I was doing everything I could to maintain my serenity and not be a victim in this way anymore and that area was one I could change.

Thank you for letting me share and start getting this out of my system.

Jen 



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Debilyn


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Jen I guess I am daft. I don't understand? YOu are saying some one was in your house as you were sleeping and took your meds and put them on the porch?

If so that is so scarey!

I will come back and read to make sure I understand right.HUGs. I tell ya, people are more afraid of my little yappers than the big ones!

Huggen ya. Hey I put bells on everything. You cannot get thru my gates or doors without them jingling! I love how they look too!

Hope you are ok and not scared!

sounds like ya need to lock your meds in something hon, But more make sure YOU are safe.

I care about you!!! Please keep in touch here. love to you guys,deb



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Jennifer


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No need to apologise Deb, I am as confused on this as you are. I do not believe anyone was in my home while I was sleeping. The moose is a baby but I would have still heard him spinning in circles of happiness that someone came to visit. The pills that were on my front porch were sprinkled down the front steps like they fell out of a package or pocket. On my best days my vision is 20/200, so if it is smaller than my shoe I will not see it, they could have been there for two or three days because I have not had anyone over who would have noticed them. They did not get there by my actions and could have caused someone harm. My inability to tell they were missing and where they were is what is causing me more distress than anything else. And I dug out this ugly fireproof, feels like 50 pound lockbox to store them in now. It angers me that I have to do that but it is better than thinking about someone taking them not understanding the risks that come with them. I lost a sense of security I had and that makes me sad but I can let it go.



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Wow, I can't believe it.  I put bells on my doors (on the inside) when I was living alone with my young children.  An old trick I learned living in the country.  I didn"t know anyone else did that.  Debilyn and I are so often on the same wave length!!

Jennifer----It really does work.  I used cowbells.  Shocks the pee out of people.  If you know someone with even minor mechanical skills, they could help you.

Jen, I know how violated you feel.  The more protective measures you take, the more you will feel back in control.

Love, Otie



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