is being teachable Jerry F", my elder sponsor taught me while I was working thru powerlessness and using rationalizations to decide what I work on and what I don't work on in recovery.  I had a sponsor and was trying to do it my way anyway.  I don't know exactly what lesson I was objecting to and maybe it was the whole recovery program thingy like when I was new that I had just decided that, "this was too hard and I just couldn't do it....boohoo". LOL  I had reached the "quit" line and so he upped the ante with, "How do you know if you can or cannot change a thing unless you try first?" 

I have just returned from home meeting where tonights subject was from "How Al-Anon Works"  and the first step.  I came to my computer to read any new responses to my last post so that I can consider everyone and arrive at a choice as to what I do or don't and there another responder who's recovery I pay close attention to because of the wide similarities to my own journey and when I started to read the response I could hear my former sponsors voice from the very first sentence.  The response wasn't saying what my sponsor use to say and the response opened the door for the lesson to revisit.

"How do you know if a thing can or cannot be changed unless you first try."  Sponsors are angels...some of them know and some of them are afraid they might just be.

I'm grateful for all of the responses to that last rant.  I got to relax reading your input and I got to pray and reinvestigate. What I won't surrender is compassion. To do that would for me result in apathy and then I will revisit my denial.

I grateful to be a part of this family.    (((((hugs)))))