Jerry I understand your anger. The feeling of powerlessness. The feeling of wanting to scream and punch the wall. MY good friend in Miami is still in the hospital after two weeks from being hit head on by a hit run drunk driver at 8:30 AM. He's going to make it. All the details were held back for particular reasons. I spoke to him Friday in the hospital, he has two broke pelvics, two broken shoulders, and what I was unaware of, a broken neck. Minimum 12 weeks recouperation. The driver "only" had three prior convictions for DUI's. At best I am angry, at worst I am asking myself if I can ever forgive.

Jerry I know you have make it your mission as one man to do everything in your power and with the help of your Higher Power to see and make a change. The fact remains that it is not something that is first and foremost on the minds of the powers that be. I've thought and asked what will it take for a change to come. What could possibliity make not one state legisature but 50 state legisatures wake up to a problem that effects thousand of innocent men, women, and children each year. Forgive me, but nothing short of a major tragedy involving someone of national importance in my opinion would be a wake up call, God forbid.

Hp knows, HP sees, and HP is not powerless. I continue to ask him to find a solution. In my life I have never questioned my HP. And I'll not now. I only want his souution to come sooner rather than later.

Keep your fight and keep your faith Jerry. I along with thousand of others understand how and why you feel as you do. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired of continuing to be effected by this cunning, baffling, powerful, and senseless disease. If you want to drink don't drive. If your want to drive don't drink. I'm beyond enough already.

HUGS,
RLC

Jerry I learned this thru Al Anon and my higher power. Its my belief I own it,my experience.

Jesus had and has a message to get to everyone. He approached every kind of person on his path. He faced  a lot of the same kind of people you are. His way was a bit different as he knew what his goal was, simply to share the message. He knew he could not talk anyone into anything, that was not his job.

He had surrendered his self, that what came would come and he would accept it. In many ways this is how we can look at a lot of things.All we can do is work hard, prepare and share the message, we do our best, the rest is not our responsibiity its in HP's hands to bring the result, whatever it is.

I know the situation is horrible, I know how passionate you are, however again its not up to you to do more. Surrender honey.

My moment was when I was facing being homeless. When I finally looked at I was doing my best, the anxiety was killing me, I thought ok if I am suppose to live in a tent or under a bridge I was. That Jehovah would bring the result.

Surrendering is so freeing, drop the rock. When we make ourselves crazy,it sucks the life out of us.

I hope you will look at the fact you have done your part. Be glad you have had the chance and still do to again and again to share the message.

Poverty,disease,lawlessness, tragedy etc. we can do our best to make changes, but again, we can only do our part and hp will do the rest in his time.

Now for me I KNOW that HP has a plan, that man cannot change so many things. In fact man thinks he has come so far, all this technology, yet there are still people, Many people who don't even have clean water, food, medicine!

Jer its honestly NOT in our hands to bring a result, you are doing your best with what you can do.Maybe what we need to do is thank HP for the blessing that we can be part of what we believe in our hearts to be right. Let go and Let God the creator.

I love ya Jer, you know that.Your passion is so impressive, sharing that may be your  only part hon, debilyn

"I'm enabling by not doing all I can to change the things I can even while they are enabling the situation to be what it is by not acting on the proposal." -jerry

My best program "advice"  is to: do what You can do, what you do have control over.  If you have the passion (and it seems that you do) you do all you can.  It takes impassioned people to continue to make noise and get attention for the cause.  If you care, that is all that matters (and you are not alone) so honor yourself by doing every thing you can, this will get you back on program track and back with resepcting jerry on the inside.  We resent ourselves and feel powerless when we dont do all we can.  It will get better, when we take our positive action/s. 

I know how important the outcome is to you, but try to release the outcome, that is in god's hands.  What matters is what we are doing about.  Practise faith that it will come to pass and it is in God's divine will for us.

Our disease is here affecting the world as an epidemic.  We cannot change other's minds but we certainly can witness and share our story, keep doing that and contacting the representatives.  Have you taken any of this cause to twitter or face book?  My mom is an animal activist and she tweets about her animal rescue causes about 25 times a day - she is creating awareness and getting support - there are many avenues to do this with nowadays - keep trying different avenues and contacting more people.  Maybe there could be a petition made up and a list of names who support it.  Small ways we can help spread the word to get awareness to our cause.  I am very sorry for the loss of life in this senseless tragedy.   Get the focus back on you and what can you do right now to further the cause &/or to allow you to feel better.  All things in god's timing, God's will be done!

Hi Jerry

Well, my friend, even if you haven't made the inroads and achieved the success with the authorities that you may have envisioned, rest assured that you have done tremendous work with all of us here at MIP....  You are a rare and beautiful gem, and your "work" on here has not gone unnoticed, and you have helped create many 'miracles in progress'....

Tom

To my beautiful friend ((Jerry)) thank you for your tireless work on behalf of all that is Good. I am so glad you have decided to rest.

I'm traveling this week. I've been thinking much about your original post and have been sending you love and light during my trip.

I relate to the frustration of powerlessness. This week, I am experiencing it with my family, my children and exAH.... frustrated that no matter what the devastating loss has been in our family... it doesn't seem to have opened anyones' eyes. Alcohol is still revered, new trends in cocktails, ugh.... the insanity... the lies... the destroyed relationships... no one gets it.

(prepare yourself, dear friend, i am all over the place..........)

I guess I am different since I moved away to another state, sometimes I just don't recognize my children anymore. My daughter is in the military, preparing to deploy later this year. My heart does not like war.  She seems to be proud of it.... some of our conversations leave me utterly speechless.  And I guess I never knew her political views before.  My son appears to be "one of us"... he yelled at me over the phone last night when I simply asked when I might see him during my visit this week, he has not answered one of my calls this past week.  I became full of fear and resentment at being yelled at and hearing the excuses, of course... went to bed feeling restless, irritable and discontent.... hating the dis-ease...  hating war... hating politicians....hating the effing pillow I was sleeping on. I want my recovery to matter! I want all my inner work to matter! I want my peace to matter.... and suddenly, I knew I had none. Then, as you mention... anger turned inward.

In meditation this morning, I struggled a great deal with egoic thinking, couldn't rid myself of Self, could not get free. Stayed with it though. Eventually I heard the truth, I was reminded of my own lack of substantial being...... which reminded me of my equanimity... which reminded me to be compassionate.... which reminded me that there is "another" in me... aaah, the on-going battlefield of my mind.... my will vs. God's will (which must be EVERYTHING I have no control over.)

War has many faces. The war in my brain is like a microcosm of a macrocosm... it's all the same enemy. My hatred, my dis-ease is all the same poison, all feeding on itself. In clarity, my program can be summed up in one word, surrender.

I feel defeated this morning. This world is never going to be my salvation and I should know that. It's likely my HP has me right where I need to be this morning. I will be finding my chair at a noon meeting today.

I give praise and thanks to your Higher power, for all that is accomplished through you, my friend. Please stop being so hard on yourself. Please place your hands over your heart and send my love and gratitude there. Thank you for being here with me.