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Well, I know when my life becomes unmanagable it's a sure fire reminder to take myself off, into the rooms of alanon, well things have been tough around here lately, regarding our son, so I knew what I needed to do, sadly two of my old home groups have now closed, but I contacted old members who I haven't seen in a year, they said we are going for a meal next week, your invited too, I said look thankyou very much but I am inbetween jobs right now I will give this one a miss, they replied with? we want you to come too, we will treat you, I am just overwhelmed I said with an offer like that how can I refuse but? I will pay my way, but nope they wouldn't let me, so I bought the drinks.
In the mean time I found this other group and set my mind to go, and so I did, it took me one and a half hours to find, and when I did, the doors were shut and locked, I was considering giving up then, but I thought, hell no, god wants me to do this, I won't give up, eventually someone answered the door and let me in, the first meeting was a little scary, but I went again this week and already I am feeling at home, I don't think it's any coinsidence when I went to my first home meeting the people there were mostly dealing with parteners, as was I, now I am dealing with my son, and low and behold the majority of those at this new meet are too, face to face gets you out gets you mixing gives you confidence, I have never yet come away from anyone of them not taking a little more away with me than I went in with!
That is awesome. I am so proud of you. Your post reminds me of the saying, Keep Calm and Carry On.
I am sad to hear of two of your former groups shut down. Thank goodness there is another one in your area that is still around. It is so wonderful that you got together with ladies from your homegroup for dinner. That is the loving hand of the program.
Thankyou Tommycat, I must say though, asking for help is huge for me, it's taken me a whole life time to swollow my ego and ask for help, it had always have to be, my way or noway, I even went to the doctors this week and asked him could he give me something to switch my head off so my body could catch up, I was not taught to take care of myself, I was taught a twisted honesty somehow, that old saying, put a brave face on it!
I know I am and can be as sick as my secrets, I don't like how that feels, so I am trying to to do waht is suggested here, you are a little treasure here my sweet, bless you.
Well this is the next best thing, and when we get busy we get better, the devil does make work of idle hands, but in my case it's an idle head, but I am working on thatlol
You are doing great ya know, so great I don't always know what to say, seems you are getting it much quicker than me, but it's not a race, just always pleased that we get it at all.
Thanks a million. You are too kind. I enjoy your fellowship in this forum as well. It is so good to see you post this week. Keep them coming.
P.S., Let me know if the doctor finds a medicine that will put the head on hold so the body can catch up. Ha Ha. I liked that one, I'll have to borrow your line sometime.
