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my a b/f thats what he will ever be untill i cut it off completely,i live in my own home me and my son i pay my own bills and take care of my 24 y/o son whom has several dr appt.due to severe sleep apnea and low oxygen levels he weighs 404 lbs,so yes ive got my hands full everythings in my name (thank gosh).so my a b/f is just a guest when he gets to swing by he lives with his boss and his family in another town 45 mins away thank gosh agin,but i do love him in a very special way same way he loves me,but im spinning my wheels with him by keeping me from reaching my spiritual goals and what i beleive in (living in infidelity)when he swings by he is a jack of all trades he has fixxed alot of things here for me i dont own i rent ,been renting here for 7 yrs and done alot of changes here and dont ever plan on having to move old house,a b/f has pulled me out of alot,he shouldnt have to but they changed landlords and now my land lord is a lawyer that dont care,slumlord,so im fighting to stay here,i dont know really what to do feel like im in a sticky sit.he wants sex everytime he sees me ,i dont enymore i just want his company he stays straight around me cause he knows i dont put up with it at all,i can be away from him and have several times when i want to break up withhim for mths at a time but then i fall weak and call him then its to do all over agin back to commiting infidelity,i just want to talk to him i miss his voice after a while,he knows ill never marry him,he can be very vindictive,prolly take everything i got cause he has nothing but the clothes on his back,he said we mixed like water and dirt then we turned to mud,he has even said i wasnthis speed and he aint my speed,we both know this,i dont know why i keep hanging onto him ,he dont have eny money never ,and he is a screw up for sure,i love my freedom,gonna do just what i wannado.i just hope one day ill be able to just walk away and never look back agin after him,so i can really move on with my life and be free too meet someday someone special not till i get healthy myself ,enybody want to add enything feel so welcome i need and always welcome eny esh from enybody,,,,,love pattycakes
All I can say is when I attend alanon face to face meetings and work on me and focus on me, I feel better about me. Have you been going to meetings? I am sure others will be along soon with more to say. Thanks for sharing, take care of you!
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Let go and let God...Let it be... let it begin with me...
im working on getting back into going steady to alanon meetings,theres no ftf meetings around here,thanx so much for yur esh .you found me.ive made mip my home page here on my pc to keep reminding me of my recovery and to stay with it.
oh and im not a newbie i had to make me a new account,ive been here for 6 yrs off and on.im pattycakes if eny bodys wondering,this is my new nick,I LOVE MY LIFE
Face to face meetings work the best for me. I have a sponsor that has been such a God send to me. I get lots of good ESH on MIP, but seeing and talking to people in the meetings and afterwards has helped to keep me strong with my trials. I am fighting being a codependent people pleasing enabler and am making the changes within myself to get to what I want. I am sending you love and support on your journey!
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God grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.
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