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Funny, I worked in the office all day alone, until about 30 minutes ago.....the Intensive Groups come in tonight....my mind has been so busy with the "what if" game, I have done good to busy myself and say the phrase, let go let God. I don't want to interrupt what the HP has planned for my A. I know that he will do what is best for him. I have about an hour more and all of a sudden got a burst of excitement about going home. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband, the man I married. But the thought of going home and there being no drama! I can relax; enjoy the kids, and pets. Cook dinner, relax, and read or watch tv. I will not be wondering when he is coming home or the mood he is in today. It's like a weight that has been lifted off me for today.
The counselor that does the Intensive Out-patient group asked me if I would take my husband back. Ya know I would, if he wants to come back as a sober person. I am slowly realizing that I don't want to live the way I have been living for the past few years. I am important, my feelings are just as important as anyone else’s. My wants and desires do not need to be put off for another time. I am a capable, loving, caring, hardworking, devoted, and deserving individual. WOW how about that. I feel strong today and tomorrow will have to wait.
I think you are doing great. Keep up the good work.
Let go and let God, is a very good strategy. It is sometimes hard to do, especially when we are left to hear our thoughts. I don't go into my own head alone, because I know that it is a bad neighborhood.
Glad to hear that you are doing ok.
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
You sound great. I am so proud of you. I so understand the feeling of relief you feel at the lack of drama. I too have felt that. Sometimes I am lonely, but that too does pass. It is better to be alone and lonely than together and lonely...for the last 6 months that my A and I were living together it was like that. there is nothing worse. Congratulations. Keep working.....
