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I know Im hiding but, i got him out and i don't want to see or talk to him because i know im not strong enough to say no to him, so, Im hiding, from him from the world, from everyonr and evrything, I feel like im just waiting for something to bad to happen but if i stick my head in the sand ill be ok for now i just want him to leave me alone i need to heal he wont let me because its all about him hes sucking the life out of me im down. i m thinking about going to a mental hospital, i know i sound crazy and i feel crazy
It would be crazy to make no change at all. You are actually doing something good now. Try an alanon meeting. It will help you to reach out. Most people here will tell you that being involved with an alcoholic made them feel like the crazy one. What you are saying is not uncommon at all.
This disease at times made me feel like I was going crazy as well. You are not alone. I think you are doing the best you can with what you have. There are so many of us here who can relate to what you are saying. Keep coming back, posting how you feel, and most importantly, think about going to a face to face meeting.
Sending thoughts and prayers and I can relate to feeling crazy dealing with my ex alcoholic husband. Try to make it to a meeting if you can, no one ever showed me such love and understanding as a face to face Al-anon group. Thanks for sharing.
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My H threatened to destroy my gig stick, my work for the last year, if I didn't call him so he could get his pool stick - I told my daughter to remind me of this every time it sounds like I'm giving in. My thinking for you Julia is to write what you are feeling down and read it whenever you are tempted to give in - read it and remember how you feel right now - this isn't what you deserve.
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
Like the others have said here, I too have often felt like I was going crazy, as a symptom of this disease. It can all become so insane. I have many times asked myself, "how did I get here?" or "what did I do to my life?" . When times are good, they are soooo good. And when times are bad, they can be horrid.
Giving yourself a safe and serence place to be, away from the chaos is good self-care and that sounds like a very stable decision to me.
