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Just wanted to wish you all a wonderful mother's day.
It is a nice day here. My children gave me beautiful gifts, one homemade, one store bought. I was supposed to receive breakfast in bed lol, but one of them is still in bed herself .
I appreciate my mom as well. She lives far away and I miss her very much.
I hope you all enjoy your day, no matter what you are doing.
My sons are adults now - 34 & 35. The son who lives closeby took me out for a wonderful meal yesterday; we decided to go then due to the crowds today. We both appreciate less crowds and the noise. I spent some of the time just silently acknowledging what a wonderful person he is. He has such a caring heart and it's little wonder he is a RN.
My other son lives several hours away. I "ordered" him ( LOL ) to stay home and take care of business. He is getting married in a few weeks and has taken on the challenge of painting their small home. He didn't realize what that entailed. I sure wish I could have helped him!
My mother lives in a care facility. I will drive over to visit with her. I usually have to make my visits quite short, for she has a personality disorder that robs her from experiencing much joy. When the ornery side of her arises, and it usaully does, that is when I make my exist. I no longer subject myself to that side of her. So many are thankful for what their mothers did for them - you know - the sentiments that are found in Halmark cards. I always wanted to feel towards her the love and appreciation that those cards describe. Recently, I have discovered an appreciation for her: She teaches me by example of what "not" to do or say. I don't mean that in a derogatory way. She never allowed her true essence to surface for very long. A lot of pain she hasn't acknowledged, I guess. I wish she were the kind that I could take out to dinner or go shopping. However, she tongue lashes anyone who crosses her path. A few years ago, I decided that I would not take her anywhere if she didn't behave. Setting boundaries!
Today, will be a different kind of Mother's Day. In the past, I always attended this day with my exhusband's family. Many of the get-togethers were hosted by us. I enjoyed entertaining them. I have many fond memorites.
Now divorced, I must carve out a different way to celebrate. I spent the early morning recalling all the joyous times of motherhood and gave thanks that I had the choice to stay home with our sons for most of their growing up years. Rearing our sons is my biggest accomplishment. I wouldn't trade those days for nothing.
I wish everyone a day of peace, regardless your circumstances. We all have mothers. I hope we can find the good in them and appreciate that.
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You have to go through the darkness to truly know the light. Lama Surya Das
Resentment is like taking poison & waiting for the other person to die. Malachy McCourt
