AWESOME! Awesome post!  I would print this out and save it for a day when you dont have so much strength and resolve.  Everything you wrote in this post, is true.  Save it and read it daily!  It is awesome, it is all about YOU and being in the moment so that you can enJOY your life.  Surrender everything else and keep forgiving each day, I find that it is much easier to forgive in incriments and then you also keep doing it, keep cleaning house. 

I have found that forgiveness is the single most powerful and transformative tool we have and we can use it at any time.  It is not only better for us to feel & then release the pain of the past, bc then it will stop defining us.  The more you forgive others, the less power they have over you, the less the past will run your life and the more empowered and transformed you will become.

I refer to not forgiving as "the heat" we hold for others.  I found when I began to let this "heat" go, that the pain and awarenesses will rush back to the person that deposited the heat in us the first time.  When we stop holding on to the feelings of over responsibility for their actions, when we let go of that pain and guilt -- it goes back to them and then they will feel the heat and HP/god will begin to work on them to change their life for the better and healthier too.  In other words, when we choose to not forgive and hold onto our resentments, it only destroys us for it.    Rock on with your program and your new "bad" self -- very awesome indeed!  AWESOME Resolve in your words.  When I feel like that, like I do right now too, it is just so very inspiring.  Keep connected to ur HP/god and keep letting it go and flow!  It makes me feel like I can sense all of the potential possibiliites HP/god has in store for me and for us all!