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Well... I am still going to CA I think. I had a big bout of not being sure if I wanted to go. I told my mom that I didn't & then changed my mind. The other question is: do they have a plan for me while I am there?
It has been 9 days since I reported in to you all. I have been to see a new counselor who is OK but is not the same as the one I had before at all. So far the main difference is she is a lady counselor & I really liked having a male counselor. I trusted & will learn to trust her. I mean it might be a stretch for me to spend the next 7 weeks trying to get to know her & her me. I am hoping that it will work out since I have to do something to get my head back on straighter.
Back to my DAD again; he did have cancer in his abdomen & they did do surgery to remove a tumor but I haven't heard if it spread to any other part of his body yet. I am anxious but am ready to hear whatever the results may be. My dad still doesn't know I am coming. What a mess! I want to tell him but there again, the uncertainty of how it will be when I get down there.
I hope that this will all work out for the better. I am counting on some hope & serenity in the days to come while I wait to make the trip. Only GOD knows what is in the future--He holds the future as far as I am concerned & yes, he holds my hand.
I want to say so much more today because I never know when I can get on this site. I am disappointed when I can't express to everyone how I am feeling & how I am doing these days! I am just grateful that I have a forum that I can be accountable to.
So, I will let you all know when I can, what's up w/ me. I hope you all call be patient w/ me as I am still a WORK IN PROGRESS!
I don't know what part of CA you are visiting; we have lots of great natural attractions. Have you visited Yosemite National Forest? Perhaps you can plan at least a day trip somewhere to take in some nature.
Whatever you do, enjoy!
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You have to go through the darkness to truly know the light. Lama Surya Das
Resentment is like taking poison & waiting for the other person to die. Malachy McCourt
Hi there, you have given me some great love and support and so now I am sending some your way! I will pray to my HP and ask Him to cover you in your travels and time in Cali. Be safe and at peace with your decision and have a good time!
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