Have to vent. ugh My hands are arthritic and sorta numb. The dumb doorknobs in my farm house are cheap.

All the fencing is up at the cabin. Yesterday I was preparing for one last trip up to stay at our new home.

I didn't get the door shut. All my 6 dogs ran out the door. I freaked, no fence. Great Pyrenees, Newfyx,Pomeranian, Basset, poodle and poodle/shi tzu.

A car came Sauveur my Pyr got hit on the side of the front of the car. He took off running stopped and barked and growled at the car then took off. I am running around trying to catch him, he takes off up the mountain, stops and waits for BonnieJo the big Newfie x girl, they both take off. I have never found them up there.

I turn around and Pop Pop the shipoo and Pom,Fezzik almost get run over by a pickup. I finally gathered them up, got them into the house.

I was suppose to be going to get the van to load up and go. Plus go to town to get money.

Now I cannot leave until the two come back. I am upset of course. I waited a little while as the two always come back after they go play up on the mountain. Just kept working here.

My two friends walk by, and stop. I tell them to keep an eye out. Tell them the story and say I just hope Bonnie does not come back alone.

I feel it is time for them to be back. I turn around and there is BonnieJo, no Sauvey! She is sitting there looking down the road. not good.

My friend comes back I am losing it, she came to show me the English Bulldog pup she is babysitting. He is a baby 12 weeks maybe. I gathered him up and turned around and cried as he licked me. omg I love that feeling. I told him to NEVER disapeer...She says she will go look by the river. I had done that but could not get far. There are these viney things, I think they are blackberrie vines that is how they spread, that i trip over

I got my water, gun and a lead rope and tell myself I have to find my dog. I have to use a cane sometimes and when it is bad I use crutches. I have cut down LOTS of walking. Anyway I go very slow, breathing and praying. Was kinda awful. I get to the place where it is kinda flat and sit.

When you are on Effexor and other that type drug, each cell in your body can only take your body going up to a certain temp. then you will have symptoms of a heat stroke, any time of year. I have had some horrific experiences. Just found out from Doc that is what it is. Anyway I feel it coming on, I am 800 feet up. I forgot my phone....dumb.

I had left a note taped at the driveway for my friend at least. dummy.

I walked on saw NOTHING.

Made it down. yelling Sauveur and sauvey till I couldn't anymore. Went looking all over. came in got on Craigslist put an add in with reward. scroll down and see a found huge white dog, great Pyr. I lose it> its sunday. They had the dog picked up and taken to pound.

I drive to the city. go to my friends house to use phone as I am OUT Of dang minutes rrrrrr. I call the sheriff, tell him that my dog was hit by a car, took off, and now he may be in the shelter. he says they do not let dogs go back out on week ends. I said he was hit by a car, took off he needs to go to the vet! he says I am not going to argue with you.

I said lookit I appreciate you guys so very much. I don't want to wait till morning if it is him to him being dead from a hematoma or lung full of fluid, or other internal injury. He said just a minute. comes back on and says go to shelter someone will meet you.

Sadly no it was not him. Its is freaking RARE for a pyr to be lost now there are two.

Not that i care, but I am in my black insulated overalls, my old ones of course.. I knew I looked like the pillsbury dough girl....

Anyway I lose it and start to run out. He comes up to me takes info, I tell him thankyou he is saying you're welcome. I said,"Eyes, he turns and looks at me in the eyes, I grab his hand and said I mean it, thank you!" he finally showed his heart.

I have no cloths or food at my house. sigh. so i go to Goodwill, run thru grabbing cloths, sheets towels. go to the store and grab food and go back up. My son and a friend went up and went allll over the mountain and by the river for along time.

I saw him when he got back. he was so nice. He lost his dog camping when he got that twisted stomach thing, bloat, found him, yikes over $2000 later he is doing fine. anyway taught my wonderful son how it feels to lose your friend I tell ya.

anyway pouring rain, cold, dark I pull in, no sauvey. I got out of my car sorta loudly say WHERE IS MY DOG???  I am walking in and hear a dog. THATs sauvey!!

I clammered in knocking things down, dropping my bags, and there he was on the back deck. let this soaking wet 176 pound of stinky dog in. he was so upset, clinging to me. all the dogs went nuts. They had been restless adn whiney.

I had to think, this is real this is sauvy that horrible feeling can go away. dried him off, fed him adn everyone hotdogs and cheese... he was exausted,no injurys. he prompty hopped on the bed here in the living room, into the very middle and zonked....

hard night as I don't know where I packed my pain pills ugh.

I KNOW he got carried off by the river. He never gets wet to skin, these guys are made to stay dry. He was soaked thru. This morn he is sooooo clean.

When my son was comforting me and saying what are you going to do. I said one day at a time, one moment at a time, gave it to God, take things as they come. He says I would and did go crazy. I told him I cannot control it, I only know no matter what it will be ok. IF I lose it, hp is always there. Then I said my first thought was what if this was my child. That people lose their kids and others like this.

My Basset someone stole 7 years agon never came back. I still look, when I as up on the mountain I was yelling his name too. Iknow its weird.

I thought NO more animals I just cannot take it. SAid I hated this place< I hated AH.

But that puppy in my arms, for me, nothing feels better. (not that I don't love human babies, but I cannot just go out and get one!)

Who would have known the skills I learn from Al Anon would penetrate into EVERY part of my life. It is the miracle, a gal on here MANY years ago, Mel, said to me when I was first here. Around 10 years ago.

Now my throat hurts from yelling I can barely talk, can't walk and my legs are cramping. am ok if i sit still. I hung the bird feeders back up....sigh

Real nice to have a cabin all furnished, food, warm cloths, big warm bed, fire place...beautiful river, trees....nice of me to set it up to just look at... pay the rent...

And here we are in an mt house, with a double mattress on the floor, cold, was all dirty cloths and NO food. lol lol and I only feel ok when I sit completely still...imagine I have a queen bed. We are all on a double.....Do you think they would sleep on their piles of blankets or the old  recliner, or double recliner....no way.

they are putting the phone and internet in tomorrow. i have to be there. anyone wanna go stay up there for me?

vat a life...hugs, debilyn so sorta sick but HAPPY Sauveur is back home...When brought him home he fit in one hand!