At my meeting tonight we had two new comers, therefore we changed the topic to alcoholism is a disease.  everytime this happens my brai says to me oh we have covered this so many times and every time I get adeeper understanding.

you see it took me quite a while for it to really sink in that my patner was ill as he was a binge drinker.  Now he is sober and I have realsied that i have been treating him unacceptably my expectation started turning into resentments when they were not met in early sobriety it is as if I just expected the isease to be gone.  My partner is really fighting this and my attitudes have been hindering rather than aiding his recovery.

But then I have needs to we are seperated at the moment while we both work on ourselves.  My HP is shinning the light on my behavior and  can see my part.  I have been experiencing some grief and its like I have gained an even deeper understanding of how detructive this disease is it does not just diappear if the stop drinking.  An alcoholic is an alcoholic ans they can get mentally well with the help of AA but just like our own recovery it does not happen over night think I must have been on what they call the pink fluffy cloud.

Just trying to keep the focus on me and my recovery and take one day at a time leave rest to Hp.

hugs