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HI everyone went to a convention this weekend with some other members who have never been to a convention before it was great to observe their amazment and growth. As for me got so so much as usual. I went without my sober BF because I am just coming out of a slip and to tell you the truth he did not want to go with me and I do not blame him. I have come home me again and feel like I got what I needed.
there is a cinema at the convention which shows films and hp showed me what I needed to see a film called drunks about sober alcoholics. I found my compassion return for my BF when he is drinking I can see the illness but sober I expect him to be normal I have put so much pressure on him felt so guilty ashmed but have let that go now.
I also found myself detaching from other al anoners behaviour and could see how I used to behave not speakin up for myself then getting resentful. I shared on top table on the last day and it all came together for me I need to get my nose out of everything and become totally focused on me become responsible for me.
On the final gathering I reconected with my HP and sobbed during the sobriety count down I am so grateful to be part of al anon and that my partner has AA.
I am booking to go to another convention with him in July but I am going with al anon friends too so that I can leave him to his AA buddies.
just wanted to share the good as well as the bad. hugs
So glad that you have reconnected with your HP; IMO, HP is always there waiting patiently for us. It is our choice.
Your share is an inspiration. It goes along with what has been going through my mind lately. One thing that I realized this AM was that I put down how my ex-husband's practice of meditation. He learned it from rehab. My form of meditation is far different from his.
Now, I see that there is no one way to meditate. The realization was quite humbling. I'm eager to apoligize to my ex when I see him again, which won't be until the end of April.
I ask my HP to show me how I was so self-righteous in other ways too, so I can make ammends. My intent is to be a "live and let live person." Takes mindfulness and lots of practice.
Thanks again.
-- Edited by GailMichelle on Monday 28th of March 2011 10:41:39 AM
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You have to go through the darkness to truly know the light. Lama Surya Das
Resentment is like taking poison & waiting for the other person to die. Malachy McCourt
I have always got a lot out of conferences and conventions. For me if there are none going on in my immediate area I always look for other AA/Alanon group anniversaries. They usually get an awesome speaker out of the area. It just lifts my spirit. I am so grateful to live in a large city where AA and Alanon is well supported here with strong solution oriented groups.
I am praying to attend a conference in Colorado in August. It is for five days so I will be away from my small children. This is for me. I hope God will work out all the details.
